Monday, July 16, 2007

second doctor's visit

Well, we went in for our second appointment at our O.B.'s and unfortunately, there's not much to report! We thought we might have something a little more "progressive" to lean on - i.e. things look better or much worse - and while the latter seems like it would be extraordinarily difficult to take, we are at a place right now where having absolutely no change is almost harder to bear. Copeland's heartrate was very strong - 145 beats per minute, which puts her safely in the "normal" range for this point in development. We still haven't seen another ultrasound since the one where she was pinpointed as suspicious for Trisomy-18, but I'm content to wait until my doctor feels it's necessary.

We continue to ask for your prayers for patience! We struggle knowing that we might actually make it all the way to the end, and then still have the same result... that Copeland may not be with us but for a few hours. I realize this is highly likely, so I don't mean to be disillusioned about reality. But sometimes the long road ahead of us - that would be about 10-12 weeks - stretches out ominously.

We also ask that you would pray specifically for wisdom about how to handle all of this with Sellers. I forget, at times, that she is so young, especially when it comes to dealing with such adult topics like mortality. We were talking just the other day about Jesus, who He is and what He did for us on the cross, and when we got to the part about how He died for our sins, her little eyes welled up with tears. It became immediately apparent that even the the word "died" scares her - although I don't think she fully grasps what death is, or what it means for someone to go to Heaven. So please pray we will have some wise counsel on how to best deal with Sellers regarding this very sensitive situation with her baby sister.

May you all have a blessed week!


Anonymous said...

I am continuing to pray for you and your family. I think of you often and hope you find the right words to say to Sellers. God Bless!

Kyle Chowning said...

While you don't know me (I'm Kristy Kitchell's (now Chowning) husband, I wanted to chime in and let you know that your story is spreading and people (myself included) are praying.

I recently was told about your story and have been following it for the past couple of weeks.

Thanks for your honesty. I can't imagine what you're going through and will continue to pray God's peace on you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I am continuing to pray for you and your family. Thank you for expressing your heart to all of us out here! We want to hear, pray for, and encourage all that you're feeling, the high and the low points. I will be praying how to talk to Sellers in ways that she can understand, and also be pray for our Awesome God and His plan. He wants to hear our yearnings and share our hearts. I freely give mine to you and your family. I hope you know how much you're blessing us by your processing of God's plan, sharing of God's bountiful blessings of joy, and words of sorrow as well. I pray for more joy and wisdom as He grants it!

Rachel said...

Hi! You don't know me, but I'm friend's with Melissa Platt. I'm now following your story, per her website, and am praying for you.

Our daughter had 2 cysts on her brain while I was pregnant. they are apparently a symptom of Trisomy 18, and although it was cut from the possibilities of complications early on, I had that brief fleeting moment of panic when the doctor gave us the news. I can only imagine what you and Conner are going thru.

So, I pray for you. It is all I know to do, but it is also the best thing I can do! God be with you.

whitney burrough akin said...

hey boothe,

love you and am praying for you today. may you, conor and selly continue to feel His peace and may He conitnue to inrease your faith as well as all of us following your situation.

miss you. i will call again soon.


Anonymous said...

Everything you write is beautiful. I know that God is carrying you and Conor right now because you can see it in so many ways. I can't read this or begin to write without tears coming...I love you all so much and my heart hurts for you. Love you.

Erin Faubus

Paula said...

You and your family continue to be in my prayers. May God's arms hold and shelter you whenever you need comfort from all the feelings that must overwhelm you at times.

Thank you for continuing to let us share this journey with you. We are all indeed privileged to lift you all up to Him in prayer.

In Him our strength,


Aubrey said...

boothe and conor- i am continuing to pray for yall and i know that The Lord is shining on you both as you go through this difficult journey together. May you continue to feel HIS constant peace and the love of your dear family and friends. God Bless you both.

aubrey 'naish' west

Emily said...

I'm sorry to keep leaving you messages in various places. The computer here at work makes email a challenge, to say the least. But while I'm here and while I'm thinking of it, I wanted to say one more thing about how we've dealt with Hope and Mattie concerning Miller Grace's absence, just as food for thought. I do not know how much my girls grasp, as far as the connection between dying and going to Heaven is concerned. We've never used the word "died" to describe what happened to Miller Grace, as my girls would react as you said Sellers did to the story about Jesus. They may very well know that Miller Grace died, but they always just say that "Miller Grace is gone up to Heaven" and so do we. It's hard, even for me, to see my child's name and that awful word connected. With my little girls, it's all about focusing on the positives, so I guess that's what I've tried to do here, too.