Wednesday, September 26, 2007

12:30 a.m.

Just wanted to update quickly: we are preparing for bed tonight - my mom and I are sitting up talking, while Conor's mom rests so that she can take the next "shift" and keep an eye on our girl - and Copeland is having frequent "blue spells" again. The last resulted in several seconds where she stopped breathing altogether. Please pray for her tonight... that she will make it through. It is almost unbearable trying to "wake her up" when she is so gray and colorless, her eyes are glazed over... as a mommy, I don't know how to keep my panic from surfacing. Please pray the Lord will breathe life into her lungs and that we will be able to remain calm if, in fact, we have to deal with this again in the next few hours. This has been a pattern today, so my fears are definitely heavier as far as Copeland making it through the night. It is hard not to be anxious.

58 comments:

texastanya said...

Praying for you all.

MamaBear at Potter Place said...

I am as well.

Anonymous said...

As I lay trying to go to sleep and couldn't, God laid you on my heart. I prayed for all of you and will continue to do so.

Paula said...

Praying that you feel God's presence. He will keep all of you close to Him as He guides baby Copeland's journey.

May His peace bring you into the morning.

Kelley said...

Lifting you all up in prayer.

Ashley said...

Dear Farley family,
I have been following your blog for some time now and I have been kneeling before the Father pleading for Him to do immeasurable more than we can ask or imagine. We walked a similar road 5 years ago as we waited to find our if our 1 lb. baby would survive. Each day I clung to His mercies because they are new every morning. By His grace she did survive and she is 5 years old. I pray the Lord will continue to allow Copeland to bless you daily as you look to Him for each moment of joy.
Ashley

JUST A MOM said...

Praying for PEACE!!!

((HUGS))

Connie said...

Praying for you..thanks for allowing us the privilege.

Anonymous said...

I was up and thought I should check on you, I will pray.

Eleanor Willis said...

I am praying that the Prince of Peace will guard you all tonight. The Lord continues to wake me up at night in tears for you and your family, I know that He is just reminding me of you all. I am honored to pray for Copeland and the entire Farley family. Thanks for the updates.

Anonymous said...

praying for you tonight!!!

Rhiannon said...

praying for rest, refreshment, peace, and security in the Lord :) May your family fall asleep soundly on his lap.

Cindy said...

Praying for you right now as I go to bed in CA. Praying you are getting rest, and that Copeland will rest peacefully and breathe well through the night. I have been checking your blog several times a day, but not commenting every time. Thank you for sharing this road with all of us. I hope it brings you an inckling of comfort to know it encourages me to see the Lord working in your family. The other day when you were struggling with all the Lord was asking of you, I couldn't help but think of the morning my husband called me from the hospital to tell me my daughter had taken a turn for the worst and was not going to make it. I was devastated to say the least. Within the next 20 minutes my pastor was on the phone with me, as I was preparing to travel to the hospital to let her go. I said to my pastor, "I know God is sovereign, but this is hard." My pastor's response was, " He knows it's hard, and He promises to be there to carry you through." At the time, I didn't want Him to be there, I wanted to just make my little girl all better. I was not ready to let her go. Now, almost 7 months later, I can say, He was with me, He did carry me, and continues to. My mom n'law has reminded me many times God knows very well the circumstances He has entrusted to us, and will be totally sufficient to meet us in our bright and dark days. My heart aches for you, as a mom it goes against every protective, mothering bone in our body to just let our children go. It's hard to fathom that one/one millionth of His love is more then we could ever give them. So Boothe, I pray you know He considers you a worthy servant to ask such a hard circumstance of, and He finds you faithful to bring Him glory. That thought has continued to humble me, and brings me to my knees every time.
Another pastor came that day to visit us in the hospital and asked us, "What's the goal of every Christian parent?" As my husband and I kind of stumbled over our words to think of the best answer(The pastor was John MacArthur, the president of the college we both graduated from, so of course we wanted to have the right answer.)He graciously answered, "to give your children back to the Lord." He then proceded to tell us..."and you to have scored an A+!" So Boothe, though we have never met, and likely never will, I want to tell you and Conor, in my book you score an A+. You continue to seek the Lord in all of this, continually pointing both of your precious girls to our Savior. Keep steadfast my friend, He is so gracious and His compassions never fail. Looking forward to reports tomorrow!
Cindy Waldeck
www.logansrace.com

Jenny said...

Oh Boothe. It certainly seems that it's the night times that are the toughest. It is a time where anything can happen... the miraculous (Matthew 25:6, Mark:13:35, Acts 16:25,26) and also the frightening (Exodus 11:4, 12:29) And yet, I know that you can claim Psalm 119:62... "At midnight I rise to give You thanks..."

Keep your chin up dear one. The Lord holds your hand.

"For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13

LWB said...

About to head to bed on the west coast - I will be praying for you guys tonight; you never cease to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Laurie Wunder Bolden

Lyric said...

Praying throughout the night.

Praying for your peace and comfort as well.

Anonymous said...

Saying a prayer for you, Conor, and the grandmoms at 2 in Texas. Copeland is so loved.

The Marlers said...

Boothe,
I have been following your journey the past few days, your story was passed along from my "Nashville" friend Lindsay Watson. Even though we don't know each other I wanted you to know the life-changing impact you, Conor, Sellers and Copeland have already had on my family. I too am 28, and have 3 girls...Carson(3 1/2), Chloe(2), and Campbell(5 months). My heart breaks for you and your family, but at the same time rejoice in God's perfect plan. I am amazed at Copelands precious life...impacting more lives than I feel I will in a lifetime. I am so thankful that God placed her in your care, however long that may be...you too should be wearing that crown. What a Godly woman you are, and an inspiration of strength to me as a mommy of baby girls. Thank you and Copeland for the blessing you are and will continue to be. My prayers for you and sweet Copeland seem to be ceaseless, thinking and praying for you even now, 2am...knowing the saddness that is filling you as I sit here. You are being covered in my prayers. God bless you Boothe.

Praying for you in Texas,
Sharla

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Anonymous said...

Praying for another day of pink lips and cheeks.

the brown's said...

praying right now...

JMom said...

Since my youth, O God, you have taught me, and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds.
Even when I am old and gray,
do not forsake me, O God, till I declare your power to the next generation, your might to all who are to come.
Your righteousness reaches to the skies, O God,you who have done great things. Who, O God, is like you?
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.
You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.
I will praise you with the harp for your faithfulness, O my God;
I will sing praise to you with the lyre, O Holy One of Israel. My lips will shout for joy when I sing praise to you— I, whom you have redeemed.
Psalm 71:17-23

Alison said...

It is morning, but I'm still praying....praying that you might have one more day....

Anonymous said...

All the way across the world, I don't even know you but through a friend. Your baby girl is in my prayers tonight-I haven't stopped thinking about her since I heard about her. I pray that the Lord makes his presence known. You are such an abiding servant of the Lord.

MOM said...

Praying...lifting you to the Lord. he will guide and direct you and give you peace.
paige holloway

Anonymous said...

Little Copeland and I share a birthday. I have tried to post several times but can't seem to leave the words on the page because they seem so inadequate.
I talked to your mother last night. I know loss but I don't know your loss. Your lost hopes and dreams for Copeland are different from mine for my son.
I pray that as you give Copeland to the great God of mercy that you will let His grace envelope you.
Bernita

Laurel Wreath said...

Praying for you first thing this morning.

Amy from Spring Hill said...

Prayed for you throughout the night- couldn't get you off my mind even while sleeping.
May God demonstrate His love and peace to you all today in a powerful way!!
I love you all and am continuing to pray!

Peggie said...

You have a lot of people following your blog, spreading the word, and most of all—praying. God will grant you the strength, He has promised to be there. A few songs got me through some really rough times with my husband "Through it All" by Andre Crouch and "When we see Christ" (in many hymnals. Maybe they will help you through some of this too.

Kitty Brown said...

Praying this morning in Birmingham.

Steph said...

Dearest Farley Family...

I am continuing to pray for you as you go through this difficult trial. I pray that you are able to enjoy, cherish & concentrate on each moment you have together & that you are able to let go & push your fears aside & pour your love into the little girl that God has given you.

Your testimony is just amazing.

May the overflowing peace & love of Christ fill your hearts & lives each moment today as you focus on Him & do His will.

Anonymous said...

couldn't sleep much last night, you all were so heavy on our hearts, we prayed continually thru out the night.....

Luluriahmom said...

She is beautiful. We are praying for you in Pennsylvania.

jtcosby said...

Praying for all of you.

Darby Stickler said...

I was up a lot last night and felt a heavy burden to pray. I had not read your last post before going to bed. The Holy Spirit laid it upon my heart to pray for Copeland and whom ever was sitting with her last night. I pray this morning that you and Conor were able to rest and that Copeland made it through the night.

Anonymous said...

Prayers for Copeland and her family in Longview. Trey says "Hi"
to Sellers. We love the pictures. Love y'all...

Amanda said...

Praying earnestly, with much love for you all!

DeeDee said...

It does my heart good to click in and see a birthday cake picture. I pray that your night was uneventful. Perfect peace as everyone sleeps.

Joy,
DeeDee

Anonymous said...

Another day. What a strong little girl. Just like her mom and dad.

Dee Dee in NC said...

Praying.

Anonymous said...

praying for your precious family. God is faithful!!!

Anonymous said...

i am praying for your serenity.

Aunt Murry said...

I am amazed at your strength. I have not been able to stop thinking about you and yours.

erika said...

Praying right now! Thanks again for sharing with us!

Melissa Platt said...

i am praying, unsure what your night was like, but praying for your today just the same.

kristin and matt said...

still praying...

Baby Leino said...

We are praying for you all as you move forward into the unknown. God is faithful & with you every moment! May His supernatural peace & love wash over you every moment as you care for your precious little girl.

Kate said...

I know many others have said this, but every night I, too, am woken up at least twice with your precious family on my heart. I know God is putting it there so that I will pray for all of you. You have been a blessing in my life.

Sun said...

I cannot imagine how difficult this is - I am praying - esp for what Paula said in a comment - that His peace would carry you - both into this morning and from moment to moment to moment. Sunshine

courtney said...

Praying, praying for you all this morning.....

MOM said...

Praying. All night praying.
''For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named. that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man. That Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height- to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us; to Him be the glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever, Amen".
Much love and prayers for you,
Paige Holloway

Laurie said...

Praying as another day begins that the Lord refreshes your strength to go through and specifically for His shield around all anxiety and fear.
Asking Him to pour His peace and calm over all of your family today. Blessings to the Grandmothers who so diligently watched over Copeland last night. Special prayers for Conor as he watches over and guards all of his "girls" at this time. Renewed strength and the "pinking" breath of God all over and through Copeland today.
Praying non-stop through another day for all of you.
Laurie in Ca.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you this morning, that your night was restful. Praying for you to make it through another day. Praying for peace and strength that only a mother can provide. Stay true, Boothe, your faithfullness amazes me. Praying for Copeland to be wrapped up in comfort...in the arms of God and those who love her so dearly.

derrickandamy said...

You all are never far from my thoughts. I am praying specifically for peace for you today Boothe. Praise God for another day! I hope this morning finds you all well.

Amy

The Asbell Family said...

Connor, Boothe, Sellers and little Copeland,

Our family is lifting you up in prayer. God will continue to comfort and sustain you. In Revelation it says He will wipe away the tears from our eyes. That's a personal, caring Father.

May He bless you richly for opening your lives and sharing with others in a way that points everyone who visits to Him. May many souls be saved and lives changed because of your testimony. Kiss Copeland on her sweet head for us.

The Asbell Family in VA

Anonymous said...

I know that you do not know me, but I know exactly how you feel right now!!! I also am a mother who was blessed with a baby with Trisomy18 (edwards syndrome). I was e-mailed your blog by a friend. I know how it feels to have a child on the brink of death, and their healthy sibling staying strong for you, through the strength of Christ!!! I too have an older child with no medical problems, he is only 13 months older than his brother. I want to let you know that your strength and faith are so admirable. I also would like to give you some news of faith and hope!!!! My son Carson who I was told would only live a few weeks, is now 8 years old and attending schoo today!! We too take things s day at a time. Carson also went through "blue" spells where he would quit breathing and we would have to stimulate him, and even though it lasted a few months, he did stop, and we did finally sleep through the night. Carson also had a feeding tube for several years, and now eats by mouth!! Carson will continue to have medical problems due to his syndrome, but after beating Cancer, three holes in his heart, and a cleft lip and palate, we know know that God is the greatest Physician there ever was!! I know you must stay grounded by what the doctors tell you, but feel free to reach for the stars, because through JESUS CHRIST all things are possible!! I just wanted to give you a bit of joyful news today, I know every little bit helps!! I will keep you and your family in my prayers. May God Bless You in All You Do!!!!

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to let you know yet another person is praying for you and admiring your strength and faith through this precious and trying time. Your family is beautiful and I will continue for pray for your specific prayer requests and pass along those requests to others I know who will pray for you, Conor, Sellars and Copeland. Thank you for sharing your journey and faith and inspiring others to follow in His path.

Renée Copeland said...

Sweet family,

Praying for you!!! Our finite sense of time is a human condition that Christ's death corrected. Every second of these "waiting" moments in our lives ultimately brings us not closer to death, but closer to life eternal, closer to Christ's glorious second coming, closer to the resurrection and closer to the reunion with our Father and loved ones. Rejoice in Him who is the Infinite One, from everlasting to everlasting, who has broken the earthly chains of time and death, and grants us life after life through Christ. We are all asked to bear separation from our loved ones but a little while. None of us is without suffering in this life. When we are finally Home, it will be crystal clear that every trial, every heartache and every unfathomable loss will have been worth it with one look at His beautiful face. Be of good courage sweet mother and father of this beautiful little soul for every passing second brings us not closer to death, but closer to Life and unspeakable joy. Praying for the peace that passes understanding for all of you today and special prayers for your sweet baby girl.
~ Renée