Friday, September 28, 2007

tomorrow

Well, here I go again. I can't seem to keep away from you all.

It's hard to believe our girl has been gone for 48 hours. I think about her almost every single second, something moms who've lost babies and children have shared with me... something I confess scared me... but something I find, now, to be strangely comforting. I stood in the mall today with my precious Sellers - we had promised her an "outing" and Pottery Barn Kids was her choice - and wondered what Copeland was doing right now. It's hard trying to grasp heaven, even for someone who grew up going to church and who should know enough to substantiate it. I just feel a little uneducated. Aren't we all? I suspect that losing a loved one does one thing for certain in a soul: you must decide, right now, for each moment, what you believe. No more of this silly blithering on about God and Heaven or even Jesus if it's not going to mean anything when you need it most. I have to choose. Is it real? Is it going to be real in my heart when I can't see through my tears? And does accepting heaven mean accepting everything else the Bible says? That there's also a hell... that without Jesus, none of us can get to the Father? Yes. I cannot take one without the other. I thought of the verse that says, "Store up for yourselves treasures in heaven." I looked at all the cute little doo-dads in Pottery Barn Kids this afternoon and part of me ached for the fact that I can't buy those things for Copeland. And then part of me realized how she would laugh, too. Laugh because the treasure - the real treasure - is Jesus. And she's as filled up with Him as any of us can ever be.

Tomorrow is the memorial. As Conor and I dug in our closets to find the right things to wear, it seemed strange to be pulling tops and skirts out in preparation for this day. Like I've said, we knew it was coming. But I find it odd that we are fast-approaching that moment, the moment these months of walking and crying and laughing and praying have metriculated into. The real moment of victory was the moment Copeland left us, but I know she would understand - and so would the Father - that for all of us here on earth, tomorrow symbolizes our letting her go. And I pray each day that I would love Copeland and Jesus enough to do that.

The video the church put together is astounding; I will post it here as soon as I get the chance. I wanted to share with you something about one of the songs we've chosen for the service. We should have some footage of that, as well. The opener is a song called "Every Road" by Amy Grant. The verses are definitely more "husband/wife" oriented... words that discuss leaning into each other when it would be easier to pull away. For some reason, this song has been on my heart since the evening Copeland died. I sat and listened to it for a while after she had left us and realized the chorus spoke to me in a way I hadn't realized I needed: "Every road that's traveled teaches something new/ And every road that's narrow pushes us to choose/ And I'd be lying if I said I had not tried to leave a time or two/ Every road that leads me, leads me back to you." I love these words. Conor and I were on a road trip once driving in Colorado. As we listened to this song, I realized that I wanted every road I took in life - every heartache, every joy, every moment we'd share that would either send us dancing or to our knees - to lead me back to him. I realize that, ultimately, that's what marriage is - and that's what our relationship with the Father should be. Just a winding, rocky path that requires only one real thing from us: that we keep coming back. I want Copeland and Sellers and all the children we ever have to know that they can rely on that fact: we'll keep coming back. Both to each other and to the Father. We're committed to it.

I pray if you can be there tomorrow, you will be blessed. I pray the songs and the words and the pictures and even the person sitting next to you will make a mark. We are so anxious to share what we have been filled up with.

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~ Jamie ~ said...

I have been checking your blog all day to see "how everyone is doing" that is such a blah question..I want you to know that you and your precious family have made me appreciate my family even more..I often also wonder what my loved ones that have passed away are doing and I know they are all learning so much from God right now...
Thank you for being so honest, brave, and a wonderful mother...you, you husband, sellers and copeland while touch many more lives..
God bless...

Mary C said...

I've been following your story and just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss, but how happy I am for precious Copeland to be back in the arms of her loving Father...she is whole and happy. I am praying for your family and for your strength tomorrow during what is sure to be a trying day. Hugs to you all.

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

I love this post Boothe! I don't know if I'll ever meet you here on earth, but I will someday, and I can't wait to tell you in person what a blessing you've been. Thank you for your honesty during such a trial, and for your fervent commitment to marriage. I'm praying for you tomorrow.

laura said...

What a beautiful reminder of the parallel between marriage and our relationship with God. We will continue to lift you up in prayer, and will pray for tomorrow as well. I pray you will feel His arms wrapped around you, that His comfort and peace will pour over you, and that you might have a glimpse of the beautiful heaven your sweet girl is in now...rocked in the arms of her heavenly Father. Thank you for sharing, for being real...God is using you in mighty ways...

Broken Yet Grateful said...

I don't know you but have read about what happened. When my mom died three years ago from cancer I found an amazing book that spoke to me and continues to do so. A Grace Disguised by Jerry Sittser. He lost much, like you. May God be present in these days.
Tasha Irving Mpls, Mn

Anonymous said...

It sounds like you have a truly wonderful service planned! May it bring so much Glory to our Father! You are an amazing woman. Thank you so much for sharing your family, your faith and your heart with others.
May He bless you immensely tomorrow!
Jessica in Chattanooga

Fran said...

Boothe..
I have never met you but feel like I know you. Your life with your angel is something I can't even articulate other than beautiful.
I will pray for you tomorrow. All of you. I pray for God's presence and peace to overtake you.

Bless you all. Keep your eyes on Jesus....He has His on you.

Your sister in Christ,
Fran
TN

Devin said...

I am in awe of you and am learning so much about faith from your example. Thank you. I will continue to pray for you all tomorrow. Copeland is beautiful and precious.

God bless.

Rebecca said...

Boothe wrote:

We are so anxious to share what we have been filled up with.

And I say:

We'll be there and can't wait to hear what you want to share with us.

I have no doubt that we'll be blessed.

I am hopeful that I'll be able to hug your neck, and Conor's, and Sellers', even though I've never met any of you.

Isn't it amazing how you can love people you've never met? God is an awesome God.

Laurie said...

So good to come here for the 100th time today and see your post. For everything that you have been through on this road, you sound calm in your spirit. I am so glad you guys got out with Sellers today. I could not help but think when you mentioned storing up treasures in heaven that you have a very special treasure in Copeland who is waiting for you along with Jesus. Hope. Your hope is alive and coming through your words bless your heart. I will be there tomorrow in spirit and thinking about you during that time. I will look forward to seeing what you post here when you do. Be blessed tomorrow and take in all the love that you will be surrounded with. There are hundreds of hugs waiting for you. Boothe, thank you so much for coming back here and sharing how you are getting along. We love you guys so much and you are in the hearts of everyone posting here. I pray for you to have wonderful rest tonight and many smiles through your tears tomorrow as you celebrate this amazing little Angel who shook the world and sent us to our knees for your family.

Be Blessed to Overflowing,
Laurie in Ca.

Cathy said...

Your family with be in our thoughts and prayers tomorrow. I do hope you post the pictures from the memorial as you celebrate Precious BAby Copeland in Jesus Arms.
CAthy

Anonymous said...

I don't know you personally, but have left numerous comments this week on how much Copeland has touched me. How much Conor and Boothe have touched me with their honesty and with their faith. I was faced with the possibility of losing my son, but he lived. How do you do this? You are such an inspiration to me. I love the idea of "Copeland's Corner" and if one day I am ever in your state- I want to go sit in that window seat. I have one request- would you please print out this blog on some pretty paper and have it bound at a print shop, and have it sitting on the window seat, so that the people who sit there, will also be touched by Copeland. This little angel, who was alive only a week- touched more lives than I have and I am 26 years old. It has made me realize- how could I inspire or help people? She is an angel now. So beautiful. Please print your amazing journey out and also all of the inspiring comments that people have left- please print it for others to read. Send it to a publishing company- you have such a god given talent in writing, Boothe. Use it!!!!!
I am praying so hard for your beautiful family. God bless you.
Jaelle momtothreebabies@netscape.com

Melissa Platt said...

once again, i do not have words, just want you to know that i am still praying for you. i will be there tomorrow...love to you all.

Anonymous said...

Your faith is outstanding!!! Your precious Copeland is looking down on all of us, and she is learning how she touched so many hearts and lives. From family you see everyday to people who have never met you, near and far -- she touched us all. Thank you for being so honest and sharing your sweet girl with us as well as your family. How is Seller's doing? I wish you the best for tomorrow and we will be thinking about you guys and praying for peace and comfort. Please continue to update us, we care about you, Conor and Seller's just as much! Much love and many hugs!

Tammy said...

Dearest Boothe, As much as you feel the need to write, I have the same need to come read your words. You put into words how grief feels. I wonder if you know what a special gift that is. (I lost my mom when I was young) I hope that you might consider writing for families, more specifically mothers, a book to help them through the journey of grief. You are a gift. And I will keep reading.

Kaylane said...

Do you know how amazing you are Boothe?? I doubt you fully understand the impact your words have had on each and every one of us who have checked your blog religiously for months. Your strength, your honesty and your loyal commitment to our Father is the most incredibly ministry I have ever witnessed on the internet.

I wish every single person who has read your blog could physically be with you tomorrow, but you better believe that we will all be with you in spirit because we love and support both you and Conor.

You are a blessing and a true gift from the Lord.

Renée Copeland said...

Dear Boothe,
A long time ago when I worked for your dad, I had a very special leather-bound guest book made for your family. I believe your parents have it still. I think "Copeland's Corner" needs a very special guest book, too. So people who visit can continue to leave notes of encouragment, prayers and thoughts about how she touched their lives. Just a thought.....
I will see you tomorrow. Praying for you all.
Love,
Renee

Clare said...

Boothe, I have grieved and grieved over your journey. I have not lost a child, but I watched, at 18, my mother bury my younger brother. She grieved her own loss and the affects of the loss on her other children and husband. It was and still is a heavy load to bear. It was a load she knew she would one day carry as Jay LIVED 14 years with Spina Bifida. The Lord was so evident in his life and still evident in his death over 8 years later.
As I have been reading your blog, I have been rewinding back to the days of what our house was like between loosing Jay and between burying Jay. I remember just doing the next thing, (wandering what to wear as well.) I would catch myself wondering why I felt an elephant on my chest that would not leave and then instantaneouly I would feel another elephant jump on as I remembered what was my life and wanting so desperately for it not to be. I just wanted to go back, just a few days.
I watched my mom be so intentional yet so lost in those days. One thing she did that I will never forget....Everytime we went to a graveside to bury someone, if you look off into the distance you will see a few men waiting with a trailer of dirt. Everyone leaves and they actually proceed with the burial. My mom wanted to watch. She could not leave. She asked that the family stay and the men come and we watched as they lowered the casket and begin to bury my brother. I watched my parents hold on tight to eachother in this last tangible and visible act of Jay's earthly body. It was so final to see yet so necessary for my mom and I did not understand at the time, so necessary for me as well.
I do not know your pain, I have tried to go there this week and imagine what it would like. As I did my final bed checks this week I couldn't help but get my girls out of bed and rock them and plead with the Lord not to have to truly know your pain. They, like Sellers and Copeland are not yours to keep, are not mine to keep and I can't imagine letting them go.
Thank you for your raw honesty and letting us see and read your pain. You will never truly know the depth of the impact your family has made. So many have been affected by Copeland and how she LIVED and so many will continue to be affected in her death. Thank you for sharing her with us. I look forward to celebrating her homecoming, but even more, I look forward to meeting her one day.

risalea said...

Boothe, you don't know me, but your words have touched me. Your family's faith in the midst of such sadness is amazing, and uplifting. I pray that God will wrap His loving arms around you as you go through tomorrow and the days ahead. Risa Ratliff

Emily said...

I'm praying for you, dear one. I remember thinking these thoughts and feeling this way in the days you're in now, the days filled with such sadness that your girl is gone, such numbness you don't even realize, and yet such... adrenaline? There is so much purpose in planning the day that you will celebrate your child's entire life and try to communicate to others all that she meant to you and all that God sent her here for. I'm on my face for you. I will not be able to attend tomorrow, but I will be lifting you up and I look so forward to reading all about Copeland's glorious day. :)

Love each other. Copeland Fair is dancing now.

simonsays said...

Oh Boothe, I have to admit I've been "planning" my outfit for tomorrow too! I ran into Target tonight (while Mark and Syd sat in the car finishing their milkshakes from Dalts!) hoping to find a skirt or pants (since ALL I wear is jeans) because I just feel like it's a special occasion - bittersweet as it is - but it was hitting me weird, too..........this search for the right outfit.........in the midst of such heartache.......

This blog is so beautifully written. And I'm with you - I choose to believe the whole kit and kaboodle - ALL of it! Thank you for challenging us (intentionally or not!).

I look forward to seeing you all tomorrow and especially look forward to honoring little Copeland's life.

Love, Julie

Anonymous said...

Dearest Boothe,

As I read your words, I am in awe of you! I thank God for sending you, Conor, Sellers and Copeland into my life. I hope to someday make it Nashville so I can sit in Copeland's Corner. Today I found myself having a conversation with my Mom (she died 9 years ago)asking her to peak in on Copeland and to let her know how much of difference she made in her 8 days on earth. I can only imagine the difference she can make from heaven, because she was heaven sent. I am not nearly as eloquent of a writer as you, but every time I visit you inspire me to put my thoughts into words. You and your family are so loved and near to my heart even though we have never met. However, through my faith, I know that someday I like others have mentioned will be able to tell you and your family thank you and share just how you touched my life.

I will be thinking and praying for your entire family tomorrow.

With much love from KY

whitney burrough akin said...

i am so very sad that we aren't able to be there tomorrow. truly, i am so sorry that we haven't been able to be there this whole time, but we will continue to pray and check your updates. we pray that your family and all in attendance will be blessed be blessed beyond belief--that He would continue to reveal HImself through the music and words.
love you so much.

whitney and will

Mc Allen said...

Boothe, Its so hard to put into words how I feel about Precious Copeland, your family, this blog, your witness & you... I homeschool my 4 girls I am a deeply commited to my Christian husband & a devoted follower & lover of our Lord & Savior. I can feel that you share that same unadulterated, true to your core, no holds bared, no going back, love for Him too. I love reading about how you ( like myself ) don't seem to have any other aternative except to follow Him though this life that we have yet to live here until He calls us home. I can't wait to hear about blessed you are tomorrow as you see first hand, the love that Our Father in Heaven is waiting to lavish on your precious family. I 'll see youright back here and I will be praying very hard for ya'll until then....
Love, in Him, Leah from Owasso Ok.

jenni said...

You are amazing...your words are beautiful to me. I will be there tomorrow & I don't know if I'll have the chance to meet you but I feel that I already know you through this blog. You & Copeland have touched my life.....

Anonymous said...

We love you, Farleys. Matt and Kathryn

Anonymous said...

Precious Boothe ~ my beautiful sister in Christ ~ I am yet another who has never met you in this life but who has been affected profoundly by your testimony. Thank you so much for remembering all of us whose hearts are continually crying out to the Father for you and checking in periodically. It is helpful to know how to pray on a day-by-day basis.

May God's Spirit do a powerful work tomorrow as you celebrate the life of Copeland. My prayer is that not a single person would leave the service without complete assurance that their eternity with Christ is secure.

Sleep well tonight.

jenny said...

I've missed you! I am so glad you wrote, I pray for you and Conor all throughout the day and until I fall asleep at night. If it wasn't for my daughter's dedication this weekend, I would be on a plane. I feel the need to embrace you, to see for myself your beautiful family. To make this all real to me. I can see what the Lord is doing in your life and how it's affecting mine. I am a different person because of you, a different christian, wife and mother. I pray that some day when I come to visit my beloved sister and her beautiful boys, in Nashville, that our paths would cross to finally meet in person. You are amazing. God is using you in more ways than you can understand. Copeland has blessed our lives, I can't wait to meet her in heaven. I pray for you all tomorrow, and all the dark days that are to come. May you find joy, the strength to smile and laugh, and continued trust in the Father. He loves you more than you could ever imagine...peace be with you sweet Boothe.

Barbie@ Mamaology said...

Boothe I wish I could give you a big hug! Your faith is so amazing and beautiful. And the Lord's light is shining through you!

Copeland is one blessed little one to have you as her Mama (Seller's too).

May the Lord give you strength, hope and even joy tomorrow as you celebrate your precious daughters life.

She has made an imprint on my heart forever!!!

Anonymous said...

I've never commented before but i found your blog a few months ago through madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com. It was just after you had found out that Copeland had Tri 3. My life then got very busy, and I could never remember what your blog name was so that I could find it again. But, i finally found it just yesterday and I spent over an hour reading every single post that i had missed. I was completely in awe of your wonderful strength and honesty through this all. And your beautiful love for Conor.

You really shared so much of little Copeland with your readers. i feel like I was there and I fell in love with her as I read all of the descriptions of her and I "saw" the amazing beauty of her short life. It is teaching me alot.

-K

Sun said...

Oh I wish I could be there. We used to live in KY and if we still did - I would find a way to come to the service. But now we live farther away...so I cannot. But I am SO thankful you will be posting the video from it and SO thankful that you are coming back to write your heart out here - THANK YOU. Thank you for your honesty and for your commitment to God and to your husband - what an example - even through the hurt, even through the tears, even through heartbreak - thank you for that. Praise God for you and for Conner - for Sellers and for little Copeland. Much love and prayers - Sunshine

Elizabeth S said...

Sweet friend, Can I call you that eventhough we've never met? I don't know if I can ever put into words how you have changed my life. I was thinking about precious Copeland and about the changes in my life because of all this, and I realized that certainly she changed me, but even more than that was the way you handled this situation. That is what changed me the most. My heart aches that I can't be there tomorrow. I would give anything, but I just can't work out the details. You have touched me in a way that, like I said, I will never be able to explain. I am so overwhelmed with appreciation I can't even make this comment make sense ;) I will be praying for you tomorrow, and probably forever! Love you.

Bethany said...

You continue to be in my prayers. Thank you for your words, they have blessed me.

Jennifer Resendez said...

Conor, Boothe, Sellers and family...

My name is Jennifer and I happened to come across your web page about your beautiful little precious girl Copeland about 2 months ago! It has really been on my heart to tell you all what a true blessing and witness you have been. I enjoy reading your blog not only to learn about your family and pray specifically for what you are requesting, but also to see the way that you love your husband/wife, your family and most importantly the Lord. Even though you have questions and you are angry or frustrated or just do not understand....your faith is without question on of the strongest I have ever met. Please know that you are more than a light to HIM....you have lived your life in a way that I am sure God is smiling down at you and letting you know to keep going, even when the way is dark because Copeland is waiting for you and cheering you on in heaven! I am not even sure if any f this is making sense but I just feel like I need to tell you to FINISH THE RACE!!!! God is not done with you or Conor yet but when he is, imagine hearing the words, WELL DONE MY GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT and then being able to see your beautiful baby girl again face to face! Praise Jesus~ All my love!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Boothe,
So good to hear from you. I'll be thinking of you & your family tomorrow.
Jennifer
Ft. Myers

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers. I so wish I could attend Copeland's memorial. I will keep checking to see the video. Know that we are thinking of you and praying for you on this difficult day.

Mandy and Brian Hopkins
GA
www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com

Becky said...

If you have never read the book "90 Minutes in Heaven" I urge you to do so. I know there have been a lot of people claiming to have been there and returned, the near death experiences.

But for some reason this man describes what he saw and heard in a way that is so different, and so real, and so what I thought it would be like but never really knew I did. If that makes sense. It brought great comfort to me.

Anonymous said...

Wish I could be there tomorrow to offer support and love. The memorial services sounds so beautiful. Keep pressing into Him and each other...you are all so very precious. Praying God's peace upon you. :-)

ndossey said...

Praying for you and your family. I just found your blog. I cried and cried as I read it. The words I'm so sorry just can express how I am feeling. Please know people are praying for you. Thank you for being so transparent. I know it has blessed me and will bless others. Praying for you.

Courtney said...

praying for you as you face tomorrow, celebrating your little one and the powerful work God has done and is doing through her life.

i know that He hears the cries of your heart and will accomplish all these things for you - enabling you to have the faith to believe, to trust Him like a little child, to cling to conor and love he and sellers with abandon even as you let copeland go to the Father.

with love and many prayers,

courtney

Cindy said...

Boothe and Family,
I will be praying fervently for you all tomorrow. Praying for overflowing grace, and that the gospel will clearly go out to all who are there. I so wish I could be there just to hug you and let you know that I understand. Just keep crying out to Him, leaning on Him, begging Him for grace for each moment. He will give it, and give it abundantly. I don't know if you already have, but you have to get 'Heaven' by Randy Alcorn. It helped me so much in picturing what Logan's existence is like now. It slowly turned my mourning into more of a joy and excitement for her. The longing to be there now has become stronger then ever of course, and this book has been great. I have a few other books to recomend, but I will tell you those later. Right now, it's your time to mourn, and experience the faithfullness of God through it all. Thank you again for sharing this journey with us all and blessing us! I know you didn't choose this, but you have proven to be a faithful servant of the King! Much love and hugs, and prayers,
Cindy Waldeck
www.logansrace.com

Dee Dee in NC said...

I wish I could come! I looked it up, even, and it's 8 hours away. You were so sweet to invite us anonymous and unknown prayer-lifters.
Keep holding on. Tomorrow won't be easy, but He'll carry you.
I kept a journal (days before blogs!)of our time with our little one, and it was a long time before I could make myself go back and read the daily accounts. There's no denying the pain. But there is also no denying that we are richer and deeper for having walked there. And, I so hope, a little more like Jesus than we were before.

Paulette said...

What an absolutely touching poignant post. Boothe I love how you express your vulnerabilities.
I will pray for you tomorrow as you grieve the loss of your precious Copeland.
May the Lord deeply Bless all of you as you deal with this pain.
I love coming here to share in your lives, thankyou for sharing Copeland with us.

Anonymous said...

Wow, Boothe. Thank you. I have been struggling in my walk with Him lately. And this post really put a lot of things in perspective. That my El Shaddai, not matter what I go through or do, is ALWAYS there for me. If I continue to fervently and whole-heartedly seek Him and always come back. I am so blessed to have been introduced to your blog. I have been posting these last few days, trying to offer words of encouragement, and I find that I am the one being encouraged. (Funny how God works that way.) In your time of sorrow, He is still using you, Lovely Boothe. Thank you for being obedient to His call. Your humble approach to Copeland's return home challenges me to be like that. I am only 20, and still a few years away from being a mom myself. But your testimony and humble obedience have really challenged me to be as open to giving my children back to Him one day. Afterall, they are never really ours. Whether it's to send them back home or prep them for the Lord's calling in their lives, we are here to care for God's little ambassadors.

And Boothe, thank you for allowing the Lord to teach me that lesson through you. I hope that realization makes me a more gracious and humble mother like you one day.

If I never meet you in this earthly life, I truly look forward to meeting you in Heaven. I'll be able to recognize you from miles away. You'll be one of the ones with a crown full of jewels, and God will be smiling down on you. Until then... :)

I will continue to be praying for you. I'm sure your family will be at the front of my mind all day tomorrow. Love you Farley family!

Katie and Dan said...

Boothe,

I want nothing more than to be there tomorrow. I know it will be a SPIRIT filled event and I am so thankful you all are going to have this ceremony to, in a sense, "let her go." What a joyous and bittersweet time to be surrounded by those who love you the most in this world - what strength I am sure you will draw from it. Dan and I wish badly we could be there but we are praying here in Hawaii for the event and that lives will continue to be blessed and touched by sweet Copeland's life and story. You are never alone, my friend, for you are constantly being covered in prayer.

Katie and Dan

Dellie said...

Hey Boothe, I SO wish I could be there with you guys but there's a small matter of a few thousand miles! But every fibre of my body will be thinking of you and praying that tomorrow will be everything you dreamed it will be, that it will be everything you need it to be and I trust that our father will be tangibly close. All our love and prayers, Adele x (from South Wales!)

Teena6 said...

Just found your blog through Holy Experience's blog. I am praying for you and lifting you up to the Lord. May God continue to give you His strength every moment. I am praying for you today.... and will continue. I will check back to see and updates.

I hope it is okay to share ... my Dad passed away on July 14th. He was 83.... so he had a long life. It was sudden and unexpected even by the doctors. I say all this to let you know I have/had some of the same feelings/thoughts. I know he is in heaven.... I know he is there and I will be one day too BUT..........

anyway... your words ministered to my heart.

I thank you for sharing Copeland's life with all of us~

lifting you up to HIM~
Teena

Anonymous said...

I am very sorry for the loss of precious Copeland. I have never met you nor your family, but I feel as though I know you somehow. If I were at all close to where you live I would be at the memorial service tomorrow, but alas I hail from Texas. Please continue the blog/web site. You have been called by God to share not only Copeland's story, but the story of your marriage, Conor and Boothe as you walk in faith. Your writing gives me pause. Great pause. God Bless you all.

May Copeland Farley's Memory be Eternal!

Love in Christ,

BeccaM

Peach said...

Thank you once again for tackling this whole path you're on with grace and with an open, honest, and vulnerable heart.

We won't meet face-to-face today, but please know your family is on my heart and in my prayers today.

Your commitment to the Lord and to your family is inspiring.

I am praying that the Lord holds you close today, Boothe.

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers today. I wish I could be there, although we've never met, just to let you know that you are on my heart and mind. May you feel peace today, even through the sadness. God bless you, Farley family.

Robin said...

I am so sorry for your loss. What a precious baby girl. You are an amazing family and from just the little I've read here, God is going to use you and what you have been through in a mighty way.

Keep the faith.

Lauren said...

Woke up thinking about you and praying for strength, peace and visions of little Copeland in awe of Jesus.
I hope today is the perfect service to honor your family- especially little angel Copeland.

Anonymous said...

thank you Farley family, you have shown such courage and dedication to God that is truly inspiring. Your family will be in my prayers today! I like to think that God and Copeland will be looking down on the ceremony today.

CKK said...

Although I don't personally know you, you have been in our hearts and prayers. I, like others, keep feeling drawn to your site. I cannot express in words what your walk with God has done for me and my family. You are a blessing to many..and certainly to me. Your honesty and faithfulness humble me and have changed my walk with Him. May you have courage and hope today as you celebrate sweet Copeland. What a treasure you have in her. What a treasure I have in you and your family. I know it may be difficult for you, but I would love to see more postings from you on how your family is doing and how God is going to continue to work through you. If you wrote your story in a book I would read it from front to back in one sitting. You have a great talent for sharing with others through words. You are precious and beautiful and our prayers will continue to be wtih you.

Embracing my cup said...

I can't tell you how good it was to hear from you again. I have been thinking about and praying for you tons. You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers today.

Thanks so much for sharing all this with us. Your honesty and your faith has challenged me. Thanks.

I cannot wait to see the video and some of the service! Wish that I could be there.

Katie Arnold said...

I so wish that I could be there today, but you have been in my prayers all morning. Your faith has changed me!

Hunny Bee May said...

I don't know your family and will not be at your memorial, but your family will be in my mind and my prayers. Once again I am just astounded at the grace you seem to have been given at this time. That makes me believe that yes it is all real. Jesus, heaven, hell. Everything the Bible says. I see that truth in the way you share and in the hope you have. May the Lord be with you and be blessed. You and your family are loved, even by people you've never met.

Meg said...

You and your family will be in my thoughts and praywers today as you honor your sweet girl. I will continue to pray for you. I do not know you all that well, but feel like I have come to know you through this blog. I wish I could come honor Copeland's life on this beautiful day, but I will be there in spirit and prayer.

Meg Johnson

Anonymous said...

i can't stand it when all others say to try to comfort you is, "read this", do this", don't do this" -- but i'm taking a chance and saying READ THIS book (www.theshack.com) because it personified the Father, the Trinity and helped me imagine heaven and see my Father right there with me in a whole new way through my grief. and i grew up in church, went to Bibile school and all too! my prayers are with you every day as you go through this grieving process.

Darby Stickler said...

Boothe, Praying for you this morning and throughout the day today. I pray the Lord's peace and comfort be with you, Conor, and Sellers! Love you!

Courtney said...

Boothe,
Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us these last several weeks. Your vulnerability and honesty has allowed the "veil" to be torn in the area of suffering. You have graciously invited us to walk through this valley with you. Thank you.

I pray that your openness will compel others who suffer in silence to cry out. I pray that the body of Christ will faithfully move in and comfort with the comfort we have received and bear each other's burdens, even when it costs us much. Thank you for showing us the way. I pray that you are continually surrounded by love as you walk each step.

I am so thankful for sweet Copeland who has challenged me to love others as hard as I can realizing that means holding them out to the Father, a Father who is good. I am beginning to see that my hands must be free not so they are empty, but so that I can raise them to praise my King.


All my love to your family,
Courtney Greene

Anonymous said...

thinking of you today.

Anonymous said...

Boothe, Conor, Sellers and Family -

May God be with you today. I hope you have a beautiful day and you celebrate your sweet girls life. She has touched so many, I am forever thankful and will remember this journey you shared with all of us. I am a different person, Mother and Wife because of you. Thank you for sharing your hearts, much love. I have never met you and you all seem to have such a special place in my heart.

Susan said...

Boothe,
Over the last little while, I feel like I have come to know you personally. While this may not truly happen on earth, I cannot wait to finally have my chance in heaven. Your light of faith has radiated around this place I call "Bloggityville".

You and your family are in our prayers as you have been. I pray that you will see God's fingerprints all over your life as you look back on these past months.

God bless you all!

Suzy Goodman said...

Terry and I will be there today celebrating Copeland's short but incredibly impacting life with you and the fact that she is now living what we only now know by faith. I look forward to dancing with her in Heaven one day!

Anonymous said...

Don't feel compelled to keep writing for those of us reading your blog. God has used your words mightily during this season; I don't know how you could even get out of bed to sit at the computer, much less blog so poignantly, eloquently about your journey. If you can't update the blog for a while, so what? We'll still be lifting you up so that you have the strength to do the next thing. Helton once told my husband & I that we would be tempted to fall back from each other when crisis hits to manage our own pain and protect each other. He said, "keep falling INTO each other". It's good advice, but sometimes hard to execute. I'd like to walk, strong, supportive, side by side, hand in hand during a crisis, but sometimes the only thing we can do is FALL...TOGETHER. I'm praying that you & Conor will do that. Thank you for not sugarcoating your experience; it is so powerful in its raw honesty, gratitude, struggle, joy, panic, peace... You have encouraged all of us to live more real and more alive in each of our lives.
I love your, my sweet sister, and am praying for you, Suzanne Kroeker

Shelly said...

I've been following your journey over the past couple of weeks and wanted you to know the Lord has used you to strengthen my faith. Praying this morning for you all that God's peace, love and comfort fill you in a way that only He can. Also, if you haven't heard about it already, there is a book called "Heaven" by Randy Alcorn that is awesome. He answers every question and then some about heaven. If I had your address I'd send it to you! Praying God's blessings on your precious family. I can't wait to meet you ALL---one day! Yours is one of the many reunions in heaven I wish I could witness!

Anonymous said...

There is a wonderful, wonderful
book called -Losing You Too Soon -
by Bernadette Keaggy, wife of Phil
Keaggy. In it she describes how they
struggle yet walk with God through the loss of their 3 little triplet sons who lived only a few days after they were born. It is an amazing story and very healing and comforting. It has helped me to be a better parent. I will continue to think of you all today and the days to follow. And you don't know me..but my daughter went to Otter Creek with your nephew, Carter and is now out at Pepperdine where he is, too. It's a small world!

Kasey said...

Your family is in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your joys and sorrows through your blog. Words are not enough to express how you have touched me! I look up to you and admire you so much even though we've never met. What a testament your life is! How precious you and your family are! I was reading this morning and I hope these verses touch your heart and bring you comfort on this day that must be unimaginably difficult.
Isaiah 65:17-20
Behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. But be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create, for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight and its people a joy. I will rejoice over Jerusalem and take delight in my people; the sound of weeping and crying will be heard in it no more. NEVER AGAIN will there be in it an infant who lkives but a few days, or an old man who does not live out his years;
Hold fast to your faith. Heaven is real, and your beautiful baby girl is there in her Father's everlasting arms. You gave her all of your life and love while she was here with you, now take comfort and rest in your Father who is now doing the same for you. For He says in His Word, "As a mother comforts her child, so I will comfort you;" Isaiah 66:13
Grace, Peace, and Blessings to you and your family.

UKNat said...

Praying for you today...

Kasey said...
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{Karla} said...

I am unable to make it today but living in Nashville myself, I will one day take my kids and we will sit in Copeland's Corner.

I will tell them of your precious daughter and the blessing she was to so many people in her brief time here on earth.

Her story and your story continue and will be a testimony to everyone who shares in it.

Hugs and blessings,
Karla

Anonymous said...

Boothe, Conor and family,
My prayer for the hours ahead, and especially the days ahead, is that God will give you strength. Your courage, faith and honesty have lifted us all. We will continue to lift you up.
Anne, Tom and Beth Gillem

8hatchers said...

Boothe & Conor & family - our family has been praying for you non stop. We can't be with you today, but you are in our every thought. We love you. Jeff & Laura & kids

Anonymous said...

Praying for you today.

Cheri Raines said...

Your words are encouraging (all of them!). We don't know each other, my name is Cheri Raines of Buford,GA. My cousin is Charlotte Poling; I think you know her through Witney. Charlotte has asked us to pray for you and your family. I'm glad to have had that opportunity. I have kept up with your blog.

We are dealing with simular situations but on opposit ages. I live with my grandmother. Every day is different. She's doing great one day and the next we think we are loosing her.

Your words and your faith are so inspiring and encouraging. I just read three or four of your inserts this morning and thought how much you need to publish it for others to be encouraged who are dealing with simular issues as you. (I'm not a publisher, just have ideas.)

Anyway, I hope to encourage you as you have me. You mentioned how your relationship with God right now is simualr to that of a junior high relationship; "Hey". I've been reading a book called Heart's Cry by Jennifer Kennedy Dean. I would like to quote her: p. 18 "Prayer is an interchange of love between the Father and His child. That desire you feel to pray is His love drawing you to delight in Him." p. 30 "Prayer is often expressed in words, but it is not the words that God recognizes as prayer. It is not the cry of the lips, but the cry of the heart that God hears. We are living prayers. Our lives are the aroma of Christ rising before God continually as a sweet-smell offering: 'For we are to God the aroma of Christ.' (2 Cor. 2:15)."

I am praying for ya'll. It is 11:20 before the memorial. I'll be praying during the memorial. My heart goes out to ya'll.

Cheri

Emily said...

In constant prayer....

Carey in B'ham said...

Lifting you up- right now as you are in the midst of the Memorial Service. Praying the arms of Jesus would be real and big as you place your little girl there.

Sue said...

Oops! I meant that Carter is your
(brother) not nephew! I knew that!
But my daughter is also Carter and
went to OCC with your Carter, and they are both now at Pepperdine. We will continue to keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

Kristy said...

Praying for you all today.....

Anonymous said...

It's funny that you can't keep away from us. We can't seem to stay away from you guys either. I've checked throughout the last few days to check on you, Conor, and Sellers. Praying for you throughout the day...Love y'all!

LWB said...

Thinking of you today. I know the service will be a joyous celebration of Copeland's sweet little life.

Laurie Wunder Bolden

Anonymous said...

heavy-hearted for you today...will remain faithful to pray for yall in the days ahead

Adriane said...

I've been thinking of y'all and praying for God's peace that "transcends all our understanding" to fill your family today. So wish I could be there to give you, Conor, and sweet Sellars a hug. Know you are on my heart today! Much love to you all, sweet Farley family.

Anonymous said...

Boothe,

As I was driving on this beautiful, fall day and praying for you guys, I heard the following song by Caedmon's Call. It then became a part of my prayer...know that you and your sweet family are covered in prayer.
Cademon’s Call – There Is A Reason
From the album – Overdressed

Late at night I wonder why
Sometimes I wonder why
Sometimes I'm so tired
I don't even try
Seems everything around me fails
But I hold on to the promise
That there is a reason

Chorus:
Late at night, the darkness makes it hard to see
The history of the saints who've gone in front of me
Through famine, plague and disbelief
His hand was still upon them
Cause there is a reason
There is a reason

He makes all things good
He makes all things good
There's a time to live and a time to die
A time for wonder and to wonder why
Cause there is a reason
There is a reason

I believe in a God who sent His only son
To walk upon this world and give His life for us
With blood and tears on a long, dark night
We know that He believed
That there is a reason
There is a reason

Chorus:

For the lonely nights
And broken hearts
The widow's mite
In the rich man's hand
And the continent
Whose blood becomes a traitor

For the child afraid to close their eyes
The prayers that seem unanswered
There is a reason
There is a reason

Chorus:

Anonymous said...

I can't put into words what an amazing family you are...I just found out about you less than six days ago and have read through your story of little Copeland. You have an awesome gift of writing with such clarity and faith! God has used your little angel in so many ways...some many are yet to come! May God continue to cover you in HIS peace and love! You are an inspiration to all but especially to those of us that are young mothers. I pray God would continue to overflow your cups with HIS strength and goodness! Blessings, Melissa

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful message of faith you continue to bestow on so many people you've never met. You, in a way, are a martyr for your faith- even as your world has been shattered, your faith has been tested to the limit- you still believe & are witnessing! Bless you & your family through this time.

Anonymous said...

although not physically in tennessee today, we have been praying for all day. we pray the celebration of Copeland's life was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful child of God . . . a tribute to an incredible little baby whose life will point many to Christ. blessings and grace. kyle and jennifer wade

Anonymous said...

Praying for your family. You've been such a blessing. May God give you comfort today and in the future

Anonymous said...

WOW! That is what I would say about today's sweet celebration of Copeland's life! It was wonderful! The strength that you two showed getting up and reading the sweet words written to Copeland! The precious video! All of the wonderful music! She was blessed to have you as parents to love her! You gave her a lifetime of love in a few short days!!!

We will be praying for you in the coming days/weeks/months as you go on! We will always remember Copeland and will look forward to meeting her someday in heaven!

Missy McDaniel

Eric the Great said...

Our family has already been so blessed by all of you. We live in Texas, so we will be there in spirit. Just know we are still praying for you guys!

Aimee, Eric, and Zane Smith

Mandy said...

Praying for you today......

Mandy and Brian Hopkins
GA

Anonymous said...

oh how i wish we could have been there today to celebrate copeland's precious life! we are thinking of yall and will not forget to keep praying throughout the tough days/months ahead. love, jennifer and will godwin

Jenny said...

Boothe, I will be thinking of you and praying for you all day. I hope you will be able to post your eulogies for Copeland for those of us who can't be there. Of course, if they are too private for this forum, we will totally understand.

I pray God's strength for you today, Boothe and Conor. You have been such a blessing to so many.

Culley said...

We love you guys and will remain to faithfully pray for you- we are here for you.

Amanda said...

I wish I could have been with you today Boothe and Conor. To honor your daughter. As I was driving down the road, here in Indiana, with a car full of screaming kids...I prayed for you both, and Sellers, and sweet Copeland. It all seems like a dream, until I re-read your words, your straight from the heart words, that bring me back into the arms of my Father.

Thank you Boothe.

With much love,
Amanda

Anonymous said...

You all were in my thoughts and prayers today as the memorial service was going on. I have looked at your blog several times waiting until you come back. Come back to share with us your truthfulness and realness. Thank you for sharing.

love and prayers in Franklin

Anonymous said...

I have been thinking about you and praying for you all day today. Your words are so inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing your heart with us--even though some of us are total strangers. May the Lord bless you and keep you. You will continue to be in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

Conor and Boothe, The memorial service was beautiful today. I believe that it was all that the Lord intended it to be -rejoicing in Copeland's life and praising our Father in heaven that Copeland is safe...with Him. You are an inspiration to us. Thank you for living your lives "out loud" that we may all grow from your experience. You have touched our lives by sharing Copeland's. She is greatly missed,
Patrick and Emily H.

Gretchen said...

Blessings to you all. May He comfort you and make His presence known in a special way. I feel so blessed even just "knowing you" through this little amount of time. Blessed knowing Copeland. And Sellers. And Boothe. And Conor. And, getting to know my Jesus even more. Thank you.

David & Casey said...

I am yet another who does not know you personally. I found your blog a few days ago and have read most of it. I first off want to tell you I'm sorry for your loss. But I also would like to tell you what an encouragement and a blessing (even in your time of loss) you have been in my own life. I am blessed to see how real your faith is in hard times, and it reminds me to trust God even when things are not in my control. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us (not an easy thing to do). Thanks you for showing your faith real, and thank you for being an encouragement in my own life. Thank you again. May God bless you and your family in your time of need. I am praying for your family...

scrappynhappy said...

While I can't be there physically, my mind, heart, and spirit will be there. God bless and keep you all.

Thank you for sharing your family and your heart with all of us.

Phyl

ali said...
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ali said...

please dont stop sharing. it means so much. thank you for so graciously recieving all of us who just wanted to love on you. it meant so much...a day forever imprinted in my memory. rest well in your father's arms tonight

Kari said...

I really love the way you have articulated the loss of your sweet Copeland. It has brought back some bittersweet times in my life. We lost our son after 5 days of his life. He was born 15 weeks premature. It has been 5 1/2 years since the last time we held him and the first time Jesus held him. I guess the pain gets easier and the memories definitely get sweeter.

The song and the video were absolutely touching as well! Thank you so much for sharing!

hypatia 370 said...

Your tribute to Copeland in life and in death leaves me speechless. I don't know how to convey how grateful I am or how much I grieve with you. May we all celebrate Copeland's life by living the love she lived. Blessed be.

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