Wednesday, September 26, 2007

8:30 a.m.

I was woken this morning by my aunt, leaning into my room to tell me that Copeland was looking blue. I had no idea what time it was - my mother, mother-in-law, aunt and grandmother had all taken shifts watching her through the night - and as I headed upstairs, all I could think was, "This is the day. We've had her for over a week now. This must be the day." Indeed, as I went to Copeland and picked her up, her color, while not as drastically blue as before, had faded. Most frighteningly, her breathing had stopped. Completely. On occasion she would let out gasps for air, sweet little cries, but on the whole, things looked dire. She hadn't eaten in about 12 hours. Conor's mom has been gracious to use a stethoscope lately and do what I don't think he or I could (whether due to lack of skill or heart): listen to her heartrate and help us gauge where things are in this whole journey. Copeland's little heartbeat seems to be relatively strong - I say 'relatively' because we are certainly watching things slow down. As we sat in the same living room I wept in only yesteday morning, I found myself screaming at God, agonizing that this could not be the time, this wasn't the moment Conor and I have prayed for.

God seems to have heard our cries for now... she is still here. But her breathing is slower, shallower; her color is definitely weaker, and her heartbeat is fading. Had I the ability to predict whether or not this episode were a 'milestone' on the direct path to her death, I would tell you so. But I don't. We go back into a place where the steps in front of us are as obscure as they have ever been. We simply ask you to pray that we will be somehow, someway, prepared to let her go. Watching her struggle may be God's strange way of giving us the ability to hand her more willingly back to Him: we can hardly bear to see her fight for life anymore. I have whispered over her in the last few minutes, just as Conor has, "Sweet girl, just go. We love you... we're so proud of you. You've fought so hard. But you don't have to fight for us anymore. We want you to be free."

I believe the Lord gave me a vision this morning of His angels, standing guard over our family as we wept over her, ready to take her to the Father when He commands. I believe when they are sent to take her, the moment she enters His arms, she will be made perfect and complete: that were we given the spiritual eyes to see, we would know that while we hold a fragile, broken body, Jesus is taking unto Himself a child who is always breathing normally, whose cheeks and lips remain flushed with joy for life, whose heart is strong and vigorous, who has been given freedom from the incredible chains this fallen world has set upon her frail form.

We love you all and will continue to update you throughout the day...

167 comments:

Michelle said...

Boothe, I will continue to lift your whole family up in prayer today. I can't imagine what you are going through. Copeland is so loved.
Michelle in Alabama

The Allen Clan said...

1 Peter 5:6-8 (New International Version) Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Anonymous said...

Boothe,
May the Lord give you the strength and peace to walk thru this day with all of the grace that He has for you!!! It will be my prayer that the Lord would continue to reveal Himself to you in powerful ways throughout this day!!! We love you and continue to pray for precious little Copeland!

Melissa Platt said...

precious boothe, i just can't imagine. i have no words, just lots of love and many, many prayers...

Britmum said...

I am praying for your family and baby Copeland.

Take care xx

Kaylane said...

As I was driving home from work yesterday I was thinking about our life before Heaven and how time seems to move so slowly when all you want to do is see your loved ones who have passed on, but then I thought about our life after we enter those pearly gates and how glorious the day will be when you will never have to worry about Copeland's health again! She WILL be made complete and she WILL be dancing with her Father until you are with her again. What an awesome and peaceful feeling. I pray that you are overwhelmed with peace today.

Darby Stickler said...

PRAYING for you, Copeland, Conor, Sellers and the whole family... may God give you His comfort and His peace as we know only He can do!

Anonymous said...

Dear Farley Family: My tears and prayers are here for you. I have been praying constantly since I "met" you over a week ago. Copeland has been safe in your arms, and when God calls, she will then be safe in the arms of Jesus. You will see her again, whole, healthy and happy, in her new body.

God bless you all.

Karen in Germantown, TN

kristin and matt said...

thank you so much for the update...we're praying for all of you.

Anonymous said...

I have been praying for you since the day before Copeland was born. I pray for great grace for you all (including Copeland) for this day. I pray for comfort and peace for your hearts.

"The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. (Deut 33:27)

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family today. Copeland is blessed with wonderful family, I am in awe of your stength and courage.
Rebecca in Alabama

Anonymous said...

what a beautiful vision you were given from a God who loves you so much. How sweet it will be to think of Copeland in the arms of Jesus, whole, breathing, an angel.
I love your family so much, even though we have never met. My prayers are with you. Please email an address so that we can send cards to your family, and a card to sellars for being such a great big sister. Jaelle Kaylor
momtothreebabies@netscape.com
from Hannibal, MO- found your blog through another blog of a friend- isnt it wonderful how our Father in Heaven works? My nephew had trisomy 18- he lived for a beautiful 9 months. He is now whole in jesus arms.

Julie said...

More prayers from VA. I wish I had some magic words for you. I have none. Just prayers.
Julie in VA

Erica said...

Boothe, thank you for the update. We are praying for you all at this moment and will continue to pray throughout the day.
Erica

Jennifer said...

Praying constantly for your precious family and that this day is how God ordains it.

Cathy said...

I am praying constantly for your entire family. You need the strength of course to let her go. Heaven is all of our ultimate resting place, where all is made perfect. But remember God created all of us in His image. Precious Copeland is created in His perfect image. If she continue to breath, please get her a little help. You will not be prolonging her suffering. She needs to be more comfortable. She seems to be trying to live, but you can see her heartrate much better with the pulse ox and just oxygen that will keep her comfortable. God is greater than these machines and can still take her in His own time. Please consider these options. I will pray for your decernment.

Elizabeth S said...

I don't know what to say. The verse that comes to mind is "Draw near to God; he will draw near to you." I can't remember where in the Bible that is, but I have said it many times. Praying...

The Larkins said...

Thank you for the update. We will continue to pray for you and your family.

-Emmy (Alston Wise's sister) and John Larkin

The Lenda's said...

Praying for peace and comfort for Copeland, you and Conor, Sellers and the rest of your family. In His perfect time Copeland will be healed and whole as she enters heaven, until then may you trust in His loving arms to be with you on the journey. May His will be done.

Kelly in Texas said...

I'm still praying. I can't even imagine how hard this is for you and Conor. My heart just breaks for your family. May the Lord hold you all especially close today.

millermoments said...

"So hold me Jesus - cause I'm shakin' like a leaf - you have been King of my glory - now won't you be my Prince of Peace."

May Rich Mullin's words bring you peace - knowing that your Abba Father is always there - providing peace.

Our many thoughts and prayers are with you and your sweet family!!!

Anonymous said...

Oh, Boothe and Conor, I cannot know what you are feeling right now, but I PRAY for peace and I pray for your strength as you go through this day and the days to come. I pray that you will feel HIS presence as you walk this walk! He is the Prince of Peace, Mighty God, Wonderful Counselor, and Everlasting Father. I lift you and all those around you up to Him!
Praying,
Missy

srp said...

I've been in constant prayer for you and your family since I found your blog through Poppy Joy's blog.
sherry in johnson city

Anonymous said...

Praying all day. Susan in Ama. TX

Liberty University said...

praying for you today!!!

Chels said...

I hate that I'm not there to hug you. To kiss Selly, to watch something silly with her and spend time loving her, and to hold Copeland and wispher prayers and love over her. I'm still praying that she will be able to breath deep and full today and I pray that He will have mercy on her and take her whenever it is His time. I wish I could have been there to celebrate her one week with you guys. Tell her I love her and tell everyone else I love them, please. Also, keep singing Farley McFirefly's song today. Its in my head and I'm signing it for you. Love you, sis

Love you sis

Wendy said...

I am praying for you too. I have not left a comment on your blog yet. I don't feel that I know how to encourage you during this time. You and your family seem so strong and have been a witness to me through your faithfulness to the Lord. I have been keeping up with your family for the past week after hearing of the birth of your daughter from a friend from college in Auburn. I have a son that is 8 months old. God has used you to help me be a better mother, and to remember not to take him or the time I have as his mommy on earth for granted. Thank you.

Sarah :) said...

Tears....prayers....faith for the journey....these are yours from my heart.

Anonymous said...

praying, praying , praying

I too have dreamed about Jesus holding Copeland and she looks like about a six month old baby, all chubby and happy and playing with Jesus' face while they both laugh. She will be whole and just waiting for you all to one day join her at home and hold her again. I can't wait!

Love you all...

D'Arcy

Sarah's In the Midst of It said...

I can't imagine the conflict in your heart right now as you want her to stay, yet want her to be free. I don't know you, yet my heart is heavy for you this morning, and I'm praying God's tender care over you, your husband, and your daughters today.

Baby Leino said...

Sweet Boothe::

We've never met. I've only been introduced to your family's journey a few days ago. But oh, how my heart aches for you & Conor, wishing in some way to take this looming ache away. As we watched our precious Isaac slip away just a few weeks ago, we too felt caught between the pain of his decline & whispering in his ear, "We love you, sweet boy. We are so proud of you. Fly to Jesus, love. Just fly to Jesus." I wept for you as you're in this valley. I rejoice for Copeland as her life is making a worldwide impact & she knows love unlike any most children in this world will ever have. There are no more words to express the ache in my heart for you other than that I am praying hard for you all & confident in God's limitless love for your sweet little girl & your family. Thank you for taking the time to update the world during these dark hours. I'm just privileged to come along side with the thousands of others as we hold up your family in prayer.

::Patience Leino

Anonymous said...

Boothe-
You are the strongest mother, your strength and wisdom I can't even begin to understand. My thoughts and prayers are consumed with Copeland and your family. I will be on my knees praying for you today.
Brooke Tanner Mabry

Amanda said...

I sit here at my office, with tears running down my face; and just knowing how my heart is breaking for dear sweet Copeland, and you, Connor and Sellers; I cant imagine how you are feeling!!

You will be in my continued prayers, for strength to handle what is yet to come, and courage to let your baby go when the time comes.

kjb said...

boothe, i am susposed to be at a first grade mom's breakfast and i can not walk out the door without sending you a word. i think i hit the "refresh" button on my computer 1,000 times a day. i am weaping for you this morning, just weaping. please know that you and conor can handle this, your marriage can handle this, your daughter can handle this, your mom, dad, in laws can handle this. all of us during our own struggles wonder how and as others look on they wonder how their friend can struggle too, but it is a personal thing between you and God. you can not explain it, but God knows what we can endure. he knows that you could handle this and i could not. my marriage could not, my kids could not, my parents, my in laws could not. this was not the journey he had for me. BUT in his goodness and justness (is that a word?:) ) you can, conor can. sweet boothe & conor, may our sweet Jesus continue to be your breath as well and you and all of us hang on with sweet baby copeland. you are amazing, and I see Jesus in you!
Kellie
Fort Worth, Texas

Anonymous said...

Praying for you throughout the day. In her few days that she has been with you her impact will be felt for decades. I cry with you and for you.
Copeland is loved.You and you family are loved.

Franklin, Tn

Anonymous said...

Boothe, Connor & Family,

I continue to pray for you at every possible moment throughout the day and night. Please know that whatever you all need in the form of prayers is being offered up to our God.

Love from KY

Sun said...

Praying for His peace and comfort to surround you from every direction. Sunshine

Anonymous said...

You are such a strong family from which I have gained strength from. God truly works in mysterious ways. For he will never give us a problem to big for us to handle. You were the chosen ones to be Copeland's parents and for that you are angels yourselves.

Peach said...

Continuing to pray for all of you. I can't even begin to understand what each moment must be like for you. I pray you will feel the arms of our precious Father holding you through this. He knows exactly what you need and when you need it.

jtcosby said...

I pray you have a peace about all things to come. I pray for strength for your family. In Him,
Tamara

Anonymous said...

Prayers from Chicago...

Christy said...

I am praying for you and precious Copeland. She will soon be free and while I know it seems like a painful eternity-you will be reunited soon.

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you! May God give you strength and peace as you go through today!

Sweet Copeland, you are so precious and so loved! What an incredible child of God you are! I pray for you to have peace today and no pain!

Bless you all and your family! Your prayer warriers are lifting you up today! Praying, praying, praying!

Anonymous said...

Boothe and Conor, I am following your journey from afar, as I don't know your family personally. I have been blessed beyond measure by your little angel's strength over the past week and by the wisdom and faith you possess in the midst of these circumstances. I am praying for all of you.
Abby from FL

Lisa said...

Tears and prayers for you and your sweet family. May God grant you peace today.
Lisa in Arlington, TX

Kate said...

Farleys,
I will continue to lift you all up today and as long as you graciously let me peek into your lives. I wish I could offer more than prayers, but I know that even though that seems small, it is what you need most. My prayers and my heart are with you. You all continue to amaze me. Sweet Copeland has impacted more people in her short time here then most get to in their years on earth. She is so loved, as are all of you. His angels be with you and cover you and keep the evil one far from your precious family. I am praying for His peace and comfort as you endure today.

Anonymous said...

Each minute, what a blessing! Each day, what a miracle! Would that we all could be so grateful. Praying for your family throughout the day,
Kit and Natalie

Jenny said...

Praying from Birmingham this morning..Love you sweet Boothe.
Jenny Watkins

Laurel Wreath said...

My heart has been with you all morning since I woke up. Praying you through this. I praised God this morning during my quiet time for the week you have been blessed with, memories you are able to treasure.

Praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I can only pray that if i were faced with something like this God would give me the strength and faithfulness that he has given you, Boothe. I pray for Copeland to feel your overwhelming love and the love of her Father. She has touched so many lives and will continue to live through the impact she has made on others, on strangers. She has given me a stronger love for my family and my Father and I will always thank her for that. You are an amazing Mother...and you will always be Copelands amazing mother. I pray for you and Conor and Sellers to be strong and comfort one another.

Fantastic Four said...

I will continue to pray for your family! Traci in MN

Anonymous said...

As I sit here and weep for you and your sweet family, I am reminded that this world is not our home and the pain we feel is no match for the joy Copeland will feel in heaven when she can dance on the streets of gold with our dear Savior. My prayers are for you and that you might feel peace and rest.

Anonymous said...

i will pray for you all throughout the day today. you are continuously on my heart and in my prayers.
lyla in lebanon

Paulette said...

Boothe,
I do know that God takes us to a point where we are content in the surrender. I know this from experience. We don't want to see sufferage in the ones we love the most. To know that Copeland will no longer suffer, but have complete wholeness in the father will help the surrender.
I hear your pain. It just seems so unfair to have to watch your precious baby die right before your eyes. I know God had a purpose in this Boothe or I promise it wouldnt be happening.
I am so sorry, and I am uplifting you and Conor and Sellars, you are always on my mind and in my heart.
I also pray for your mother's who are amazing woman and all who are there to help you through. You are so Blessed, and Copeland will be forever in your hearts for having to go through this journey with her.
You are loved and prayed for.Thankyou for letting Godly sisters and Brothers share this with ya'll. I am forever changed and will forever be a sister in Christ.

Amy said...

My husband and I have gone through many trials in the past few years. Through all of them, I have heard the Lord whisper to me, "If I never answer your prayers, will you still praise Me?" "Will you still love Me?"

Your faith and trust in our Lord has been an inspiration to me. I will continue to lift you up in prayer throughout the day.

Psalm 42:11
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Anonymous said...

Boothe,
You are wise beyond your years. Please know that I am praying for you and your husband and family and most of all precious Copeland in Southern Arizona. Thank you for your willingness to share your thoughts and Copeland with us. Trudy

Anonymous said...

"Be not afraid. I go before you always, come follow me, and I will give you rest."

"Know that I am with you always."

"Be still and know I'm here."

Sit still and close your eyes. Say the following 3 times very slowly, thinking about each word.
Jesus. Jesus. Jesus.

JMom said...

I read this from Elisabeth Elliot this morning and thought of you:
"Is it a sin to ask God why? It is always best to go first for our answers to Jesus Himself. He cried out on the cross, "My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?" It was a human cry, a cry of desperation, springing from His heart's agony at the prospect of being put into the hands of wicked men and actually becoming sin for you and me. We can never suffer anything like that, yet we do at times feel forsaken and cry, Why, Lord?

The psalmist asked why. Job, a blameless man, suffering horrible torments on an ash heap, asked why. It does not seem to me to be sinful to ask the question. What is sinful is resentment against God and His dealings with us. When we begin to doubt His love and imagine that He is cheating us of something we have a right to, we are guilty as Adam and Eve were guilty. They took the snake at his word rather than God. The same snake comes to us repeatedly with the same suggestions: Does God love you? Does He really want the best for you? Is His word trustworthy? Isn't He cheating you? Forget His promises. You'd be better off if you do it your way.

I have often asked why. Many things have happened which I didn't plan on and which human rationality could not explain. In the darkness of my perplexity and sorrow I have heard Him say quietly, Trust Me. He knew that my question was not the challenge of unbelief or resentment. I have never doubted that He loves me, but I have sometimes felt like St. Teresa of Avila who, when she was dumped out of a carriage into a ditch, said, "If this is the way You treat your friends, no wonder You have so few!" Job was not, it seems to me, a very patient man. But he never gave up his conviction that he was in God's hands. God was big enough to take whatever Job dished out (see Job 16 for a sample). Do not be afraid to tell Him exactly how you feel (He's already read your thoughts anyway). Don't tell the whole world. God can take it--others can't. Then listen for His answer. Six scriptural answers to the question WHY come from: 1 Peter 4:12-13; Romans 5:3-4; 2 Corinthians 12:9; John 14:31; Romans 8:17; Colossians 1:24. There is mystery, but it is not all mystery. Here are clear reasons."

Praying for you all.

Anonymous said...

I am praying for your family and checking your blog many times a day. It's hard to say good-bye to someone you love, but through the prayers of your many friends, many you do not know by name, you are being lifted up to our loving, caring Father for strength to carry on your lives. Copeland will always be a part of your lives no matter how many days she is with you. You are going through the hardest of times that a parent can endure and I just thank God for your witness of faith in Him.

Grandma of 7 in Maryland

Anonymous said...

Boothe,Conor, Paula, Mike and family, We are in constant prayer for all of you. God's timing is perfect, as hard as that is to accept sometimes. But you have the wisdom and faith to cherish each moment you have with tiny, precious Copeland. She is truly a gift from God.
anne, tom and beth gillem

Melanie said...

Still praying for your family and checking in often.

1 plus twins said...

i can't imagine what you and your family are going thru. the emotional ups and downs of following god and letting go. it is unimaginable. you and conner are doing such a wonderful job with copeland and with your faith. don't beat yourself up on the bad days! i admire you both so much. enjoy the time you have. i will continue to pray for copelands journey and for you entire family. god bless you all.

Anonymous said...

Your faith and courage continues to astound me. Please know that you are being prayed for by many people, many of whom you have never met and probably never will, this side of Heaven. Your are an amazing example of one who truly rests in the Lord. Thank you.

Suzanne in NC

LWB said...

You guys were the first thing on my mind when I got up this am. Praying for you.

Laurie Wunder Bolden

Laura said...

I know you are surrounded by the great cloud of witnesses! Praying for much grace for all 4 of you...keep pressing into the pain you are so brave and so precious.
Sending much love.

Anonymous said...

Continuing to lift all of you up to our Lord and savior. May you feel his peace and love.

Betsy P.

Mary Alice said...

Boothe, I can't even imagine how agonizing this is for you, Conor and your entire family. I am so sorry for your pain. As someone who struggles with anxiety, I am keenly aware of what I am sure is only a portion of what you are feeling. I am praying specifically that God will relieve your feelings of anxiousness and give you His peace.

I am grateful that God has given you a vision of His angels surrounding you. He loves you so much and wants you to know that HE IS NEAR.

I love you, sweet sister.

Ashley Jacobson said...

This breaks my heart. I watched my baby take healthy breaths last night and wept for you. I am so sorry for your pain, and can not imagine what you must be feeling. I pray that you will continue to find solace in the lord. Your faith is unbelievable beautiful.

Anonymous said...

We lift you up over and over to our Heavenly Father. Praying the Lord will give you strength that only HE can give. Know you are loved and being prayed for. We are praying sweet Copeland will rest in her Heavenly Father's arms when His time is right. Thank you for allowing the saints to gather around your sweet family. Love to all.

Alison said...

Tearfully lifting you all up to the Lord....

Anonymous said...

My heart aches and my tears flow. I continue to pray for your family.
Sharon

erika said...

Can hardly see the computer screen thru my tears. What a brave whisper. To let her go seems unbearable, but to know the delight she will bring to heaven is the promise that I hope will bring you peace. Many prayers from Florida!
erika mcpherson powell

Anonymous said...

I just found your blog last night. Your eloquence and strength through the last several weeks have moved me to tears. Thank you for sharing this trying time with us. I pray for Copeland and your family.

Jason White Family said...

Farley Family,
Thank you so much for sharing your pain and heartache, joys and blessings with us. Strangers everywhere are going to God for you.
May you experience God's peace like never before. Praying without ceasing...

Sue said...

I took a moment just now to count the number of posts you've written just this month. You are being so kind and generous to allow us to share this painful journey with you... so many of us total strangers who only know you because of Copeland. God is using you to teach us so many things. I know that is no compensation, but it is a purpose for what He is requiring of you. Thank you for your words and your witness. Praying for you in St. Louis today...

Vanessa said...

Conner and Boothe,

I live here in Nashville as well and your story has touched my heart. My love and prayers go out to your family, and pray nothing but the best for all.

whitney burrough akin said...

crying and praying for you this day too! love all of you so much!

Jenny said...

"See, I am sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way and to bring you to the place I have prepared." Exodus 23:20

How wonderful of our Almighty God to allow you to see this. It must have given you so much comfort, knowing she will not make the journey alone, and yet, it must have been hard, knowing that perhaps the time is so near that the angel needs to be waiting close by.

I will find it agonising to go to bed soon, not knowing how Copeland is. I will pray continually, and I ask that the Lord wakes me often, if required, to pray and intercede for you.

I still pray that she smiles for you.

Anonymous said...

Holding you sweet Copeland and your mama, daddy, big sister Sellers, and your grandparents in a tight loving hold from Texas.

Kimberly

Anonymous said...

Praying continually for you and Conor.
mary t. miller

Rebecca said...

I found your blog through Lindsay Watson. Your honesty has touched me deeply today. I am praying that you and your family will experience that perfect peace that passes all understanding today and in the future. I know that this entire journey is beyond our human understanding. I'm so grateful that God doesn't mind us asking "why", just like you don't mind hearing your 3 year old ask you why probably over and over about all sorts of things...that's just a job as a parent explaining...sometimes that's easy to do and often impossible. Already Copeland has touched so many lives, mine has been one, and for that I will be eternally grateful. Praise the Lord for the tie that binds our hearts as one. Lifting you and yours up.

Laura Madden said...

Conor, Boothe,
I have been praying for your family ever since I met your little angel, Coleland. I cried when I read your blogs last night. I can't believe she took a bottle! What a miracle! I fed her the first bottle shortly after she was born and she did not tolerate it. I will be praying for your family and copeland all day. Please call me if I can do anything for you.(591-9821) I am so blessed to met Copeland and her amazing family. Love Laura(NICU nurse)

Laurie said...

With a very heavy heart I lift you and your family up to the Lord to be cradled in his peace that passes all understanding. Letting go and letting God is impossible without this peace. May He pour it all over you this day and keep your hearts and minds safe in Jesus. I am asking Him specifically for the moment when He takes Copeland home, that He enables you to see a smile on her sweet face as she looks into the loving eyes of her Creator. And special prayers for the grandparents who are watching their own children (Boothe and Conor) go through this valley, as they watch Copeland going through also. Prayers every moment of the day for all of your hearts today.
Laurie in Ca.

Anonymous said...

"As the mountains surround Jeusalem, so the Lord surrounds his people both now and forevermore."

I'm praying that you feel Him surrounding you today and forever.

Cheb said...

Much love and prayers from Tulsa, Oklahoma
Cheryl

Carolyn said...

Your family is in our prayers. Your plight reminds me that each day is a precious gift from God. Enjoy your time with Copeland.

Lange family in WI

mcm said...

looking through all the comments quickly, i was suddely struck with how many many lives your little girl has touched in just a few short days. i think about the extended ripple effect, how each of the commenters is probably just a small reflection of how her life continues to reach out and touch more and more and more lives. your tiny little miracle baby laying there, completely unaware of how god has given her as a gift to the world even if it's just so brief.
it made me think too, how he has chosen you to be the bearer of this gift (similar to mary, jesus's mother) and you have said yes, even as the sword has pierced your own heart and your husband and her sister's hearts so deeply. i can only sit and admire your strength and god's goodness. his knowledge that you would have the strength to be the bearer of the gift. his great goodness in giving us the gift. thank you. god bless you and comfort you through it all. prayers. mel

Jennifer said...

I am crazy about your girls. Little Copeland's life has touched so many that she will never know, but God has used her in a mighty way. I pray for peace today for you and Conor.

debsdesignz said...

Once again, my heart is breaking for you and I am just weeping. It's amazing how I've never met your family or your little baby girl, yet I feel so much for the 4 of you! You continue to amaze with your spiritual strength and I pray that the Lord will continue to give that to you! I am praying for you!

Just little ole me said...

Praying for Copeland and your family for continued strength and peace. Be still and know I am God!

Amy said...

Conor, Boothe and Sellers,
You don't know me but I'm a friend of Zach and Kara Sheets. I've been checking your blog numerous times a day and praying hard for your sweet family. May the Lord give you peace and strength as you walk through this fire.

Anonymous said...

from tampa.. you are all in my thoughts and heart, and my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you guys but I would just love to hug you and tell you that everything will be okay. Instead, I'll talk to our Father and let Him embrace you and speak peace to you.
Amy in Alabama

Tiffany said...

tender Boothe and Conor,
I can feel how fragile your moments have been and are right now. I wish that you could feel the strength of all of our arms wanting to and reaching out to carry you both now. My prayers are going out for you today. I pray that God continues to give you the assurance that He has, to show you a picture of Copeland whole and healed. He has allowed you to see her that way. I thank God that he has! I pray that He helps you to remain strong to fend off Satan's attack on you and Conor. I pray that you feel comfort in knowing you can give all yourself to the Lord, whether angry, quiet, away or rejoicing - He longs to hear from your regardless of where you are. I pray that you feel Him, consistent and loving.
I'm praying!

Christy said...

Praying for your peace and strength. Your family are your angels and will see you through.

Anonymous said...

I believe that God has given you a perfect picture of Copeland once He has her in His arms! Hold on to that picture and know that when He decides to take her home it will in no way be a goodbye...for you WILL see her again!! But for now you have this precious angel in your arms and you are loving her with every fiber of your being. She has probably been loved more in this past week than some people get in a lifetime. What a blessing she is!!

Anonymous said...

Take in each moment you have together. It will last you a lifetime. God be with you all in this struggle as He can only be. God Bless!

Anonymous said...

Dear Conor & Boothe,
This simple song, Shelter Me, makes me think of you every time I hear it. It isn't thick with theology, but soothingly simple...the cry of a hurting person needing the Lord's shelter, comfort and everlasting arms under them.

1.When I cannot close my eyes, and the night goes on;
Troubles taunt on every side, and my doubt is strong.

Refrain:
Shelter me, shelter me! Let the cord of Your compassion be my strength.
Prince of Peace, shelter me; from the tempest of my unbelief.
Mighty God, who calmed the sea, come and shelter me.

2.Do Your promises still stand? Does Your mercy cease? By the power of Your hand, grant me my release.

Refrain:
Shelter me, shelter me; let the cord of Your compassion be my strength.
Prince of Peace, shelter me; from the tempest of my unbelief.
Mighty God, who calmed the sea, come and shelter me.

You are loved,
Pam Cone

Anonymous said...

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.
Psalm 46:1-2

Standing and crying out to our living Father with you,
Phemie

Shannon said...

As I read your post tears pour down my cheeks. I pray to Jesus to hold you, to comfort you, and to give you peace that certainly will surpass all understanding. I find myself crying out to Him on your and Copeland's behalf.

Anonymous said...

Precious Farley Family, I am praying for joyful moments and precious memories for the time you have left with Copeland here on this earth and for the days and months and years ahead. You will never know this side of Heaven how many lives you have touched and ministered to.
Lisa in Texas

A Place For Ministry Wives said...

The ups and downs this journey is taking you on so encourages me. It's such a picture of the Christian walk and the reality of mountaintops and valleys.

Your story, and what God is doing in your family on a daily basis, truly speaks to me.

Anonymous said...

I'm another one of the masses of people out there thinking of you you all.

Love Viks
viks@postpals.co.uk

elizauburn said...

Thank you for keeping us updated....I find myself checking your blog almost hourly. You're faith is so incredibly encouraging. We're still praying for you....
Love, Elizabeth & Blake

ali said...

boothe...
I am praying. our community group was on our knees last night for you. it touched my heart and blessed me so much when as soon as they came in they wanted to know how things were going with you and your family. I'm sure that there are so many books that people are telling you to read but these two completely changed my relationship with the lord literally: Shattered Dreams by Larry Crabb and Grace Walk by Steve McVey. From the words that you have been writing I have thought of these two books so many times.
"That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death." Phil. 3.10
The Lord is growing you and teaching you through this suffering.
i love you and am anxiously awaiting news.

rebekah (anderson) wright said...

Our hearts are aching for you and we are praying for God's perfect timing and perfect peace for your whole family. We continue to lift you up many many times a day.

Anonymous said...

When I don't know how to pray, I pray with the words Jesus prayed... Our Father, Who art in heaven, Hallowed Be thy name, Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in heaven, give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors, And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil, For thine is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever AMEN
May God give you the strength you need to handle each minute of this day and all the days to come.

Sheryl said...

I don't personally know you, but I have come to know you and your family through your blog. So many people have said so many words to try and help you through this situation. I know there's nothing left for me to say except that it is AWESOME that well all serve the SAME God and that he CARES!!! If it is so sweet to be in his arms here on the earth, just imagine what it's like to be in his arms in heaven! When it becomes Copeland's time to go there can be no better place than in the arms of God. I will be praying for God's divine strength, joy and comfort. You don't have to go through this time alone. You have definetly shown you and your husband are leavning on Him. You will become stronger in this. God bless you richly and remember we're praying for you!
Sheryl from Kansas

Laurin said...

Sweet Boothe,
I catch myself holding my breath everytime I hit refresh in anticipation of the words I might read on your blog. I know that anxious anticipation pales in comparison to how you feel everytime you check on your sweet Copeland. Fervent prayers going up for you and your family in Memphis.

Anonymous said...

Boothe, there are no words to express to you the strength and courage being displayed through your and Conor's weakness and sadness. You don't know me, but somehow our gracious Lord has allowed me the honor of reading of your faith during this very tough time in your life. Two days ago I had surgery to remove a blighted ovum from my uterus and an ectopic pregnancy from my tube. As I read your blog I wept in shame of the frustration towards our Lord that I have had recently. I want to say thank you for your constant reminder of God's ways being much higher than our ways and always more perfect than ours. I know the Lord will continue to pour His peace in your heart even when you least expect it. To Him who is able to do immeasureably more than we ask or imagine...He created you and and Conor with the faith and strength to endure this. May His peace REIGN in your hearts...
Carrie Kell

Dee Dee in NC said...

You are gifted in communicating your hearts' cries. Thank you for your honesty and transparency as you walk this agonizing tightrope, trying to love her and still hold her hand loosely so that He can take her gently when He sees fit.
I guess it's a tightrope all parents walk to some degree with their children; it's just on a different time scale and for you right now so much more intense and painful. Still somehow it mirrors the love of all devoted Christian parents. I continue to pray for you, admire you, learn from you, and hurt with you.

Jenna said...

Your updates are such a gift to those like me, who have come to love Copeland and your entire family even though we don't know you. Just reading about her through this crazy world of technology feels like stepping onto holy ground. I am continuing to lift up your family today.

With Love, Jenna

Lyric said...

Praying for all of you.

Emmanuel.

the brown's said...

Praying...

sarah brewer said...

boothe, conor, sellers,and copeland fair farley, you have fought the good fight! your courage and strength speak volumes of God's love and care for you and your precious family. He is close to the broken hearted and will supply all your needs as you walk this journey He has put before you. What a sweet blessing He has given to have copeland for this time to love and speak to her! we are with you and you are so loved!love to all, sarah and will

Amanda M. said...

Boothe,
I am so amazed by your strength, courage, and faith. We will continue to pray and pray for all of you.
-Amanda M. in WI

Seized by Hope said...

what a beautiful picture you painted of His angels waiting to take your sweet girl. I'm Praying for comfort in every way you need it.

Katie and Dan said...

We ended our day in prayer over you and we began our day here in Hawaii praying over you, sweet Copeland. You are such a blessing.

Katie and Dan

Anonymous said...

I don't pray, but I'll keep your family in my thoughts... xoxo

Baba/night owl said...

Boothe, The sun may be shining outside my door , here in Savannah, Ga., but my heart is heavy with a cloud over it.I feel your pain....
" God is watching over us in his special way; He sends us each an angel To guard us night and day."
My blessings to you , Copeland,Conor, Sellers and all of your family.
Barb

Anonymous said...

May God give you the strength to endure this day. I do believe God gave you that vision and I hope you find great peace in knowing that He's there.

Anonymous said...

I will be praying for you today...

Anonymous said...

Still praying! Many prayers and much love surround you during this time. We will continue to lift you and your precious family up to the Lord. May God bless and his will be done. Keep the faith!

Anonymous said...

Words of encouragement from an old chorus. "God is still on his throne. And He will remember His own. Though trials may press us, and burdens distress us, He will never leave us alone. God is still on the throne!"

Devin said...

Weeping for you, with you. Praying with fervor for some peace for you and your family. Sweet Copeland has touched more lives in 7 days than most of us in many more. God bless you always.

Tammy C said...

A prayer from Wake Forest,NC

Anonymous said...

For some reason the song "He's Got the Whole World in His Hands" came in to mind when thinking about you. There's a verse that says "He's got the itty bitty babies, in His hand..." and I just thought of your sweet Copeland. She is in His hands, as are all of you. What comfort to know that in the midst of great sadness, you are still being held by the one who loves you more than anyone else, with a love more powerful than words can explain. May you find comfort and joy knowing you are in His hands, may your spirits be fed, and may you feel peace. Still praying for you all and that God's grace is around you.
Katie

sherry luttrell said...

I pray for peace and strength for you and the rest of your family. I cannot even imagine going through what you're going through and seeing your sweet baby suffer in any way. I will continuously lift you up today and pray that the Lord will give you strength.
Love, Sherry

Anonymous said...

Boothe,
I just want you to know that you are all in my hearts and prayers!
Love you!!
Jama

Meg said...

Praying for you today. May He bless you with a peace that passes understanding.

Tara said...

We are praying for you... May Gods peace and love be with you. Tara

Joann said...

love and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Hey Boothe,
I am one of Melanie Neilson's roomates Mary Kat Conolley and I just want you to know that I am lifting all of you up in prayer as well as The Harbour Church here in Ft. Lauderdale, Fl. I just want you to know that I am believing God for a miracle for Copeland to be fully healed on this side of Heaven. He is a God of restoration! I declare Jeremiah 33 over Copeland and that the breath of God will breathe in Her new life, new organs, new molecules that are in alignment with His order. We love you! We speak LIFE over Copeland.

Emily said...

I know you're overwhelmed with comments. I just wanted to remind you that I'm here and you know I've been in similar shoes. I'm always willing to "go there" with you. And I felt like the Lord wanted me to remind you of that. (270)392-1547... day or night. One hour separates you from a mother who has looked your worst nightmare in the face, and still praises God. I don't get it, but God does. So I'm lifting you up all the time. ;) Angels really are hovering over you and will carry precious Copeland home in His perfect time. She has at least two gorgeous little friends, Madeline Grace Hopkins and my Miller Grace, waiting for her. :) Even when you don't feel it, God IS big enough to carry all of you through this.

Anonymous said...

Boothe and Conor, We continue to pray for you all. For peace, comfort,assurance and strength. You daughter is just like both of you. Full of heart and strength. Please be encouraged, that just as birth is a miraculous event, so is death. Both cannot be explained to our heads, but to our hearts both events,with time, make sense. I have never been so convinced that we have spirits and we have souls as I have been at the birth of our babies and at the death of friend. It is just so obvious that our bodies house us here, but our spirit cannot be contained or broken by the failings of this earthly body. Be courageous..the process is tough and painful, but the reward for Copeland (and us in our time) is magnificant.
Love, Kristin Pierson

derrickandamy said...

Boothe, Conor and Family,

I am praying for the peace that passes all understanding to be on each one of you today. May God be your comfort in this time of pain. With much love~Amy

Suzy Goodman said...

Praying continually for all of you.

Claire said...

Boothe, thank you for the update. We have been praying for you all constantly! We love you and will continue to pray for all 4 of you today.

Love,
Claire and Robert

kim said...

Praying with you in Oregon.....

MFL said...

boothe, praying for you and your family today...much love, mary faith

Anonymous said...

I have tears streaming down my face right now and I am in AWE of the strength that God has given you through this process. I can't imagine having the strength to tell my child it is ok to go now...I admire you for your obedience to HIM. I have followed several other Trisomy 18 babies and Copeland has a special place in my heart. I know that you will give God glory for this little girl. I am also amazed at the incredible support of so many people you have never met on this blog. Stay strong and know that HE is in control. Please know I am praying for your entire family!
Jaime in Georgia

Anonymous said...

praying for you in chicago - know that copeland's life has had an incredible effect on so many, including myself.

laura said...

Boothe,
You are handling things so well under such difficult circumstances. After years of infertility, ultimately five miscarriages, and one son born with congenital heart disease that almost took his life at 8weeks old without emergency surgery, I can understand all of the thoughts you have written about. My son who was making the "death cry" before his surgery told me at four that he would be going Home before any of us but it would be ok. At five, he asked me why it was taking so long for him to go Home. He is still with us at 11, he says he asked God to let him stay since we would miss him so much even though he is ready to go.
It is so difficult wondering what each morning will bring.
God has blessed us with three other little boys. Just remember that while sometimes our path seems covered with rocks and obstacles there are other times when it is smooth and easy. These babies that suffer in their physical form here on earth seem to have a halo of grace around them and I am sure you see and feel it around Copeland. You are an inspiration to us all and we will keep you in our prayers!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you all.

Mandy said...

May God's mercy strengthen you during the coming days. You have been an example of faith and trust in God. Thank you for allowing Copeland to bless all of our lives and touch our hearts in ways words cannot express.

I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears. My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes. Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping. The LORD has heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer. Psalm 6:6-9

The Trone's: James, Misty, and Bella Grace said...

Praying for His peace upon you all.

kdwhorses said...

I hope you and your family find strength, peace and hope in the Lord. We will praying for you here and asking for God's guidance. May God Bless you and keep you.

Sarah said...

Boothe- May God watch over you during this time. Many prayers for your family.

katie said...

boothe, conor, and girls-
just want you to know you are prayed for... but all of our friends and family as well. your faith is an encouragement and we will be on our knees for you...
ben, katie, and campbell compton

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lhall said...

Boothe and Conor,

I am a friend of Chelsea and Heath's and have really loved being able to, in some very miniscule way, walk through this time with you and your family by reading your words.

I want you to know the depth and width of which you are reaching people by writing this blog. Individuals, that I know have no connection with you at all, are having prayer meetings on behalf of your family. Believers are being challenged and encouraged by your words of faith.

You have been an example to me of what it looks like to trust in the Lord and, at the same time, wrestle with Him during times of such mixed joy and pain.

I have sent people to your blog who are uncertain of the Foundation on which they stand...just so that they can read about what it truly looks like to be sustained by HIM.

THANK YOU for sharing. THANK YOU for inspiring during a time when you didn't necessarily have to.

Blessings and Prayers to you,
Sellers and Copeland,

lindsay hall

MOM said...

Dearest Boothe and Conor,
May your rest be complete in Him. Praying: " We lift our eyes unto the hills, where does our strength come from? Our strength comes from the Lord...maker of heaven and earth." "To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord." Jesus is right there....always just right there. As your little one struggles against those chains, Jesus is right there, with open arms. ,"Do not be afraid, for I am with you"." I will never leave you nor forsake you."
Much love to you,
The Holloways

Jennie said...
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rrlundyjr said...

Boothe and Conor,

Praying for you today

Roland

Jennie said...

Boothe, your faith and strength amaze me! I pray that you will find peace in the remaining moments you have with your precious daughter.

Jennie in Nashville, TN

hanna said...

God's strength and peace in you and your family shines as the brightest light! I am so touched by your story. What a blessing to read. Thank you for sharing it. I am thankful for the time God's given you here with your family. Please know you each are prayed for.

Anonymous said...

Dear Conner and Boothe,

We've never met, but I happened to come across your blog two nights ago. I am the aunt of a fabulous little girl who has cystic fibrosis(another disease for which there is no cure). And although her health is currently stable, down deep, our family knows that at some point we will be walking down the road you currently find yourself on.

Thank God He is supplying you with the strength to so elequently write the words of a mother's heart. It is a testimony of the sustaining power of God.

Copeland's earthly body (and my niece's as well) is like a diamond in the rough. But when she enters the presence of the Master Craftsman, her body will be shaped and reformed. She will then reflect the internal brillance, radiance, and multi-faceted beauty of her spirit that has been present all along.

LIFEGEM is a wonderful organization that my family is preplanning with to create a tribute diamond for my sister to wear in my niece's honor when the time comes. Info is available on the web if you are interested.

And now, a prayer. May you be drenched with the knowledge of God's deep Love. May He show Himself strong on your behalf in ever-increasingly more tangible ways. May Peace, beyond all earthly understanding, settle down into your soul, and make it's home there. May you sense the Freedom you have in Christ to feel and embrace every stage of your grief, no matter how ugly or beautiful that stage may be. Know that God not only see's your pain, but compassionately and empathetically feels it. Finally, in Jesus' name, may Restoration, Renewal, and Wholeness be yours. Amen

An Intercessor in GA

eliza said...

Heard about you through some friends who are frields of friends... want you to know you are loved by me and people all over- even though you don't know me.
How beautiful is the body of Christ!! How beautiful are the Saints!!! How beautiful is our God.

I am praying for you and your precious family. May He demonstrate Himself as the great I AM today. He is... whatever you need. He is.

Love, Eliza in Savannah

Anonymous said...

Prayers from California. We've been praying for you all day. May the Lord be with your family, and be with your precious baby girl.

Mc Allen said...

hi I'm chelsea I live in Owasso Ok. I am 12 and really touched by your faith right now as their is a battle going on in the sky. when I heard about copeland It impacted me and I just want you to know that I am praying for you and copeland.just know that God loves you & hurts when you hurt.--. believing God for you in Oklahoma.

Marni New (Lunsford) said...

Much love and even more prayers. I love yall so much!

Love, Marni

Anonymous said...

Your words have encouraged me more than you know. If we could all only know the Lord as you and your husband do. Sellars and Copeland are truly blessed. I feel blessed just reading your words. My prayers are with you!

Jena Baker said...

Boothe, No words today--just know I am praying for your family and for sweet Copeland.

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

Jer 29:11-12

sixsteps said...

I have been on the road now for almost a month and my wife who knows you guys and loves you dearly has been updating me. I can't even get through one post without tears flowing running down my face. I'm not in a very safe place to be showing emotion out on the road with a hip hop group but its amazing to think about God's mercy through this whole process. My wife and I walked down a similiar path with our son and connecting to you guys through this blog just crushes my heart! I have a hard time saying I will pray for you but my heart aches with you and unites in love with you and your family!

Anonymous said...

Boothe,
I prayed God would give you a vision like that, and I praise Him that He did.
A sister in Christ in Ohio

Anonymous said...

we are praying for you here!
-Liberty University

Patsy said...

Precious family, my heart is agonizing with each one of you. As a grandmother who was with our family and son's precious little 48 day old daughter fight for her life for 38 hours after her mother had been instantly killed by a 42 year old woman drunk driver, I relate to your joys, anger, pain and abiding love. We all tried to breathe with her and for her in spite of knowing she would soon be with her beautiful Mommy in Heaven. It is so painful to turn loose, but as our son said, "We are so blessed to have had them in our lives even too short of a time." They gave us so much to hang our hurting hearts on. Your witness reminds me of our son's, and I am blessed yet again. Thank you for sharing your painful yet blessed journey through love and faith. God's strength is yours even when you feel you are in the darkest depths of pain. We know that now. Our hearts and prayers are with each one of you. Love in Christ, Patsy, Grandmother to our little Angel