Friday, September 21, 2007

7:00 am

Incredibly, Copeland made it through another night. As my mom and mother-in-law held her through the first hours, followed by Conor and then the NICU nurse, she had only a couple of "blue spells" where her body changed color dramatically enough to require a heartrate check. This elicited a few fears that she might be sliding back away from us. I slept through it all, somewhat to my frustration, but she is with us now in our room and seems to be doing as well as her little body can at this point.

It's hard to believe we are going on four days of life for our sweet girl, Our prayers, particularly after speaking with the neonatologist who was on-call yesterday, focus on enjoying Copeland through the rest of our hospital stay. We would love to see her go home to the Father when Conor and I pack up, too. The main reason we're anxious and hopeful that she will have one more good day with us here and that the Lord, then, will take her is that without feeding questions answered, taking her back to our house and trying to care for her would be beyond a challenge. We know the NICU could do a better job, but leaving her here wouldn't work for us emotionally. So knowing she could also be in heaven with the Lord, healed and whole, seems to be the most merciful option. We pray for it.

Thank you for loving us. Conor is holding her as I type and she continues to fight for life. I've thought several times of scripture a friend read over us the week before her birth, from 2 Chronicles, describing how the battle belongs to the Lord. Copeland's battle is God's, which is the only reason our sweet girl has made it this far. We have no idea how many more moments He's ordained for her, but we trust He's already set into motion the victory and is preparing a place for her with Him.

40 comments:

Rhondi said...

praying for your sweet girl today.

Brooke Tucker Elder said...

Boothe, that is such a hard thing to pray for but we will be lifting you all up today and pray the Lords will over your sweet, sweet family.

Jenny said...

Your page has been refreshed so many times on my computer today that I'm amazed it's not burnt into the screen. I am still praying for you all. The Lord is merciful. He hears you. He loves you. He holds you close to his heart.

Cheb said...

Dear Farley Family,

I stand in awe of your faith; I kneel and pray for your endurance;
and I am reminded of God's MERCY through your understanding and patience.

Courtland is truly an angel, sent to earth for a very short time. We are all so lucky to have known her. Thank you so much for sharing your story! God is with you always.
HUGS

Lauren said...

You are so correct, the battle is the Lord's. I am so thankful that He is a strong warrior yet full of grace and mercy at the same time. I am praying, through my tears, that Copeland would be with our Father and be healed all in perfect timing. You and Conor are being prayed for in Memphis by many.
Lauren
(Lisbeth's friend)

Melissa Platt said...

what an amazing mother you are...what a blessing that for her days on this earth she has known the depths of such great love. i am so thankful that you were able to rest last night and trust that the Lord will continue to hear the MANY prayers that are constantly being lifted up all over the world on your behalf. praying for enjoyment and for His perfect timing. Blessings to ALL of you!

Anonymous said...

Thank you God for Copeland. She is an ANGEL. Our prays are with you.

simonsays said...

Oh Boothe, I'm so relieved to read this post. I was up with Syd in the night and was thinking about your mom and Conor's mom taking care of little Copeland. It sounds like you and Conor are sharing some sweet time with her this morning. Thank you for being so honest about how to pray for her. Will be thinking about you and lifting you up all day.

Love, Julie

jenny said...

What a hard thing to pray for. You seem at peace knowing that any time is God's time. What an angel that you've gotten to know over the last nine months and now the last 4 days. Another prayer was answered, she made it through another night. What a blessing to have her to hold again this morning. God be with you all, we're still praying in WI.

Anonymous said...

We will continue to pray without ceasing.
Mary T. Miller
Birmingham

Anonymous said...

Keeping you in our prayers!
Blessings,
Lori

Anonymous said...

We are praying throughout the day for you all as you spend sweet time with sweet Copleand.

D'Arcy Collins

Darby Stickler said...

Thankful for answered prayers that she made it through the night. I pray that the entire family can enjoy her today. Still praying!!

JMom said...

Praying.

Joann said...

precious copeland...your life is making an amazing impact. isaiah 41:9-10 is yours and you are chosen and safe in His hand along with your loving family. praying, praying, praying.

Christy said...

I am a fellow OCPreschool mom. I have been hearing your story and now reading it too. I have been and will continue to pray for your families strength and endurance. It is a hard prayer but I will join in on praying that Copeland can enjoy her last few hours with her earthly family before she meets her heavenly one.

Laurie said...

So grateful you were able to sleep as moms so lovingly watched over Copeland and both of you. Rest in the knowledge that the Lord has every detail of what is ahead already in motion. Recently I read a post at Angie & Nathans that beautifully described the "Edge of Eternity" and this is where you are in this moment.
Such a delicate balance of holding on and letting go. God is showing your faith and trust growing deeper with each moment that Copeland gives it her all in this battle. His grace and mercy shine all over this time and He holds you next to His heart, He will not let go, He will see you through to the end, He promises. He says to not be anxious and I pray all anxiety and worry to be laid at His feet today so that you may get your fill of her and feel pure joy in your hearts. This is your time to love her and be rewarded for your faithfulness in giving her this chance at life.
Continued and non stop prayers for you through this new day. You are loved.

Laurie in Ca.

Anonymous said...

ALL of you continue to be on our hearts non stop.
Praying for you all without ceasing. God's mercies are new every morning...great is His faithfulness.
with love........the hemmings

Pepper Magargee said...

So thankful for another day with your sweet girl.
She is so beautiful.
I am praying with ya'll for the Lord to reveal
His perfect plan.
Much Love,
Pepper and Peter

crystal said...

As hard as it is to pray for, I will earnestly lift up your request and desire for the timing of Copeland's homecoming with the Father. I am also praying for your physical healing Boothe, as I know it has been the last thing on your mind, but nonetheless needs healing. Peace be over your family today as you all gather to love on Copeland.

kate yeager said...

praying for all of you and God's perfect timing.

Rebecca said...

I am still praying.

Paulette said...

Boothe,
You have the most beautiful heart, that is the only way you could put these beautiful thoughts into words. I ache for you and Conor but I am so extremely humbled at you both as well. You are both a walking testimony of God's sweet Grace.
I pray that all your requests are granted today.
May you all rest in the arms of Jesus today. I will pray for you all the entire day, I promise.

Anonymous said...

What a strong little baby you have! I am so happy for the time you have had with sweet Copeland and the love she has given you and you have given her!

Praying for you all to have peace and feel the Lords presence! I will be praying hard for you today!

Jessica said...

Boothe,
I get phone calls each day with updates from my family. I find myself praying for you and Conor and Copeland during all the craziness of life and feeling a such an incredible peace for ya'll, knowing that God's plan is perfect and his timing is just amazing. I hope you know how much it has meant for our family to meet Copeland and what a blessing she has been in our lives. My prayers will not cease...
Jessica

erika said...

Praise the Lord! I will pray for mercy. The Lord has brought you thus far he will never leave you or foresake you. I know He can't wait to have Copeland with Him... she is absolutely the epitome of precious. So glad you got some rest last night! I am so glad you have this blog, like others... "refreshing" the screen all the time looking for updates and inspiration. Boothe, you are truly an inspiration. I wonder if you realize what you mean to all these people- even those you don't know!? What an amazing God we serve, that He is using your trials and your heartache to reveal Himself to all of us. Praying for mercies and grace...
kisses to the precious little Copealand!
erika mcpherson powell

Anonymous said...

Dear Farley family,

Your amazing strength through this is comparable only to the faith and peace you have maintained. God is with you and has had a plan for Copeland ... she is doing His work more effectively than most people do even when they have long lifetime to spend. I am thankful for you and for Copeland. I don't know who wrote the following, but I've always found it encouraging....

"Faith is not always a champion that marches alone. Sometimes faith is accompanied by fear. Faith is not the absence of questioning; it is the presence of action in the midst of those questions. Faith does not provide all the answers; it provides a basis for confidence in the midst of unreasonable circumstances."

May you continue to find God's blessings and strength as you take this walk.

Les said...

I know you don't know me, but I am a mother and my heart aches for your family. You are in my prayers! God will be with you (as you already know).

Jeanie D said...

Conor & Boothe,

We are so thrilled for another day with sweet Copeland. We will be with you in prayer all day. Love, John & Jeanie

MOM said...

Still Praying........in His time...In His time....He makes all things beautiful in His time.......
Paige Holloway

Anonymous said...

We are praying for your family today...may you feel His presence today in a real way.

Tina said...

Prayers are continuing!

Cynthia said...

Your family is being prayed for in Lynchburg, VA today. May you know the peace and sweet presence of God with your family today.

Your trust in God is an encouragement to all of us.

Anonymous said...

Again today I humbled by your faith and endurance. We all receive God's grace even though we are unworthy, but you and your family are so faithful it is humbling to see your faith and exciting to see God working in your lives. I will pray today that you are rested and that Copeland is peaceful. Your family has traveled an amazing journey and God's hand will continue to guide you. We do not know you personally but through a "by marriage" connection to a friend of ours. You have touched our lives in many ways. Our family is praying for you this day that your prayers are lifted up to Him and held close to His heart. My children will even be praying at school today for your precious family. They continually ask me to refresh the page and were so happy to see this mornings posting. May you have a blessed day with your family.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you all and praying for a day of peace and happiness with little Copeland and family. Your strength and faith are an absolute inspiration!

Charleston J said...

Friends in Lynchburg, VA are praying for you today, that you will experience the sweet presence of God.

Your trust in God is an encouragement to us all.

myLIFEspeaks said...

I have been receiving the email updates and now find myself attached to your blog. thank you so much for your openness in this situation. we are praying so much that God's peace, strength, and grace will be lavished on your entire family. unfortunately we know the feeling and experience all too well, but we also know that God's amazingness will come out in ways you least expect it. please know that it is such a opportunity we have that we get to pray for you during this. our family has clung to 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 during times like this, as well as 2 Corinthians 12:9, "...My GRACE is sufficient for you, for MY power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore i will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." many blessings to you and your family!

Kristy C said...

My husband and I pray for you often, and check your blog almost every hour for updates. Needless to say, Copeland has captured our attention and our hearts. We cannot even imagine going through this ourselves, but we are encouraged and inspired by the way you and Conor are.

Anonymous said...

I've been following the blogs... Can't help but be teary-eyed everytime... you guys are so strong and amazing!! So many people love you and have you on their hearts! Know I am thinking and continuously praying for you and sweet little Copeland.......KM

Kristy said...

Your amazing faith challenges me in my own walk. Thank you for being so open and transparent. You will never know, this side of eternity, the difference you and your sweet baby have made in the lives of people you will never meet. Praying God's blessings on you.